Only Time Can Tell (Going through editing) ✔

Opening Up (17)

Okay it's going to Lissa and i'm surprise i haven't dedicated a chapter to her before because well, she's a brillant writer and you so need to read her new short story Dance for Me.

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I look into his eyes and Xander stands there. I feel a tear come down my face and before I know what’s happening he’s pulling me into a hug.

‘What happened?’

‘I miss my parents. My dad just called me.’ he holds my head in his hands and wipes my tears.
‘Why don’t we go and get some food and watch a movie.’ I smile and nod. He kisses me gently on the cheek. I let him take my hand and he drags me down the stairs. He sat me on the stool and Ryan came into the room.

‘What’s up?’ He says sitting down next to me.

‘I miss mom and dad.’ He pulls me into a hug and kisses me on the head. ‘Dad just called me.’
‘Alright baby girl. Alex, can you cook?’

‘Not really.’ I let out a small giggle.

‘Go and put a movie on. I’ll make pasta.’ I smile and I slide off the stool. Xander and I walk into the sitting room. I sit on the sofa.

‘Harry potter?’ I smile and nod and he lets out a small laugh. He puts the film on and sits down next to me and I put my head on his shoulder and his arm wraps around my body.

Ryan comes in twenty minutes later with three bowls of pasta with tomato sauce. He sits down next to me and says.

‘Really.’

‘Ryan, you’re twenty two. So maybe a little old for the harry potter generation.’

‘Think that’s an achievement being called old at twenty two.’ I see that Ryan's looking at the screen. I start eating the pasta. I see Ryan’s eyes going to Xander’s hand which is placed around my waist. Ryan and Xander are talking about sport and my eyes are on the screen. I curl up to Xander and close my eyes, and then I fall asleep.

When I came around I'm lying on Xander’s lap, I didn’t open my eyes, but stayed lying down with my eyes close. ‘Alex.’

‘Yeah.’

‘Why did you leave my sister? I’ve wanted to ask all weekend.’

‘She’s asleep right.’ I felt someone touch my cheek and he carried on. ‘I was gonna make her breakfast when your mom came through the door. She had a huge go at me and said that if I come anywhere near Delilah again she get me arrested. So, I left her and I broke her.’

‘You know you would be an awesome brother in law.’ I hear a light chuckle.

‘Wouldn’t go that far. So, Dy said you have a girlfriend is she hot.’ Xander asked.

‘Her dad owns the country club here. I don’t see her very often. Here’s a pic.’

‘She’s out of your league.’

‘Shut up. My sister may like you, but that doesn’t mean I’m not afraid to punch you.’ I stirred and opened my eyes and moan. I hear a light chuckle and I sat up and realized I was more on Xander than I thought I was.

‘Have a nice sleep.’

‘Yep.’ I curled up to Xander. ‘So, how did harry potter end.’

‘Wasn’t paying attention. Anyways you’ve watched the movie like a billion times.’

‘Are you related to Daniel because if you are can I meet him? I love British guys.’

‘No I’m not.’

‘Damn. Why am I friends with you.’ His breaths into my ear.

‘Because I’m incredibly sexy.’ I roll my eyes and move off his lap and turn to face Ryan. He looks at his watch and says.

‘I think I need to go home.’

‘You are home.’

‘You know what I mean. Lila I need to go back home.’

‘Why I haven’t seen you in a year.’ He pulls me into a hug and kisses me on the forehead.

‘Because I don’t live in the high school bubble anymore. I told you I’m here for the week, but I need to go home. I will come back next month. I promise.’ He hugs me again, and then stands up.

‘Bye man and Xander sort your life out.’ He nods and I walk out the room. Xander pulls me close and I put my head on his shoulder.

My thoughts are on Xander and his conversation with Ryan. It was my mother who told him to say away. She’s the reason to why my heart broke she is the reason to my miscarried. She shouldn’t have done that. Xander’s eyes are on the screen and my heads resting on his chest. I look up at him and he catches my eye and smiles.

‘Yes Dy.’ I stick my tongue at him and he rolls his eyes and says. ‘You're acting like a child.’

‘Okay so, I’ve lightened up the mood. I need to tell you something.’ He looks at me. I give him a weak smile before pulling away from him. His eyes are still on me and I crawl onto his lap and face him. His arm wraps around my waist and looks right at him. ‘First I think I love you.’ He looks shocked, but pressed his lips to mine.

‘I’m little hurt that it’s only and I think you’re hurting my ego here.’ I glare at him and he’s wearing a grin.

‘I’m trying to be serious here.’ I mummer to him. His lips go to mine and my eyes fall to my hands which are loosely lying on Xander’s lap. He keeps cutting me off, that arrogant, cocky, jerk, charming, perfect guy. ‘You done.’ He nods. I take a deep breath and looking through my lashes I say. ‘There's a reason to why I went so, insane about you leaving me there lying on my own. The only thing you can’t get back is your virginity and you broke my heart. You tore my whole world apart. You know I use to have these dreams about you. Dreams when I ran a blade through your heart. I wanted to kiss you because I thought you deserved it.’ A tear falls down my face.

‘You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to.’

‘But I need to. I really need to.’ I took a deep breath and look in his eyes. ‘Okay, the reason I am so, pissed at you is because. It’s because. Well,’ I bite down on my lip and take another deep breath. ‘Um...Well...Alex you got me pregnant.’ His mouth fell open and I look down at my hands.

‘Did you just say what I think you said?’ I nod. More tears fall down my face and he pulls me close to his body. ‘Why didn't you tell me?’

‘Because you were always the reason I had a miscarriage.’ He pulls away from me and my vision has become unfocused. ‘I found out a month later and the following week the baby was gone. You broke more than my heart. I told Ryan, but he’s the only other one I told. Also, he sort of guessed.’

‘Your brother is pretty smart. I feel awful Dy. You should have told me.’

‘Yes because you would have come back.’

‘I would have. I only left you because your parents wanted nothing to do with me. They didn’t like the idea of us.’

‘I heard it. I wasn’t asleep. I’m not mad, anymore. But I thought you would be the one to hate me. I mean we could have had a child together, but the child died.’

‘Dy. I love you. I have always loved you. You think that I haven’t hated myself every day for the last year for the no reason.’

‘That’s oddly sweet of you, but can we just keep this between you and me. I don’t want people to think I’m a slut. So, don’t tell Selena. Give it a few days for her and a few weeks for everyone else.’ He presses his lips to mine and says.

‘I try my best to be sweet. I think I can do that.’ I smile and curl up to him and closing my eyes I fall asleep.

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Hope this is okay and i'm sorry for the badness of it.