Mom: I think you wouldn't care if I die right now, do you even love me
Me: yes I love you very much, it's hard to get my emotions out
My Mind: am I that heartless, do I hurt you that bad, why can't I show my emotions well,.........
Mom: well you need to
Me: I'm trying
My Mind: your not trying hard enough
Mom: your not trying hard enough
Next Day
Dads talking to Mom: I think she will be very happy to see me sick tomorrow
My Mind: no not you dad I counted on you, hold back the tears don't cry you weak piece of| I can't feel anything, my hands are numb, my heart is racing, my mind won't shut up,I can't move, I can't breathe. SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE
Me: no, no ones going to help you, your on your own
This actually happened to me a few days ago me and my dad had a closer relationship than me and my mom but I love them both very much it's just hard for me to express it. I've been uneasy since then, I feel like I hurt everything I touch
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My Depression thoughts
Non-FictionDepression, my thoughts, triggering, this is stuff in my head and I needed to get it out somehow I don't post frequently so
