My Depression thoughts

Would You

You trust me but I don't trust you

You think you know everything about me

But I so wish you new

I can't help not to trust

If I would have told you this face to face

Our friendship would be a bust

Would you love something that made itself so ugly

Would you want to be friends with someone that thought your friendship with them is muddy

Would you want to talk to someone with so much self-doubt

Would you want to sit by someone who wants there life to fade out

I know you know I love you

But I hope you can love me too

You wonder why I sit alone with my earbuds in

I do it because I know I will never fit in

You get mad and I take it

I tell someone else about it and they say

Can't you take a hit

I say nothing else I just walk away

Can I have one conversation without me getting hurt and my head getting grey

I hate you but I don't

My heart wants to trust you

But my mind says you won't

Can't you see I'm hurting on the inside

I guess my emotions are to much like a disguise

I'm a nothing can't you see

I can't be what you want me to be

I'm that pathetic

I'm really down I think I need a medic

I try to tell you my feelings

But you push me aside like my words have no meaning

I want to say goodbye friends

And that be the end