The Real World (Oikawa Tooru x Reader)

Love?

You heard the two girls run out of the gym, through the exit door, giggling to themselves. You slowly wiped the tears away, you wanted to screech, hell. But only what you could do is stand on silence, "(n-Name) are you okay?" Tooru stuttered coming closer to you. "I-i-I'm Fine.." I said while not knowing why my voice cracked a bit. "(Name) Fine doesn't mean fine and I know it"
"You wanna heat the truth?!" I yelled, my perfection, my perfect lie and mask was torn apart.
"Yes!" He yelled back. "You are a disgraceful prick that's the only one who has a perfect life! Maybe you don't hear every whisper in the back of us. But I do! And all of the attention and rumors are because I'm talking to you all the time moron" Every word wounded Oikawa deeply, like a spear thrown in his heart every time. You on another hand, felt guilt washing over you after you realized what sentence just came out of your mouth.
   Tooru's brown orbs looked down on the ground. Like he was about to cry. "I-if I'm cause you that much trouble..I think I should be the one that has to leave." Tooru tried to be polite about it, maybe he really did. "TOORU I DIDNT MEAN IT IM SORRY!" There...you messed up again...good job.
And at that the door closed on you. You sighed in frustration. You wanted to be colder to people, like your fellow friend Kagyama Tobio. But is that what you really wanted? If this how it really feels like to let go of someone? W-wait... people told me
That's how you feel when you let someone you love go. Doesn't that mean..you were still in love with Tooru? It couldn't be it. I mean no..you always laughed when Iwa-Chan told you that you guys will be a great couple. And you just laughed it off like it was nothing. But could it be actually true? Could you...actually be with in...Love?