The Real World (Oikawa Tooru x Reader)

Admitting

Flashback
'I love you (Name)' said Kuroo in a playful manner.
'Love is a big word dummy' You smiled cheerfully, while you were overwhelmed with joy of your boyfriend caring for you so much.
'But I truly mean it (Name), I do love you with all of my heart until the day I die' He said as he rapped his hands around you and kissed your neck. 'You are the love of my life'
End of flashback

You raced down from the lockers to the hall, that leads to the exit. You quickly saw Tooru, and started racing towards him. "TOORU!" You yelled on top of your lungs. He turned around, smiling. "What is it (Name)-Chan?"

You knew he had a fake smile on. You came up closer. "I didn't mean what I said back there..I'm sorry.." you said as bowing pretty low. He shoved you into a hug what totally got you by surprise. "You know I can hear the rumors too right? I have ears after all" He smiled, pure smile. You blushed madly, you finally saw the 'true' him. That every girl was fangirling over so much. Dark, Brown, Playful But Lustful eyes. Strong and healthy body. Soft, but extremely soft brown hair that looked kinda wavy. You didn't want to admit it, but he actually looked very hot at that moment. "Heyyyy (Name)? Earth to (Name)-Chan! I repeat, Earth to (Name)-Chan" Tooru said, which caused you to stop daydreaming about him and blush even more.
"(Name)~Chan you're getting red~~" The Brown male stated in a playful manner. "S-shut up!" I said, surprisingly getting even redder. "Aww are you catching feelings for me (Name)~Chan?" he said while winking and a smirk starting to spread on his face. "Pffff no, I just ran to you a little too fast to apologize, so I'm out of breath" you said, you knew you shouldn't tell him.
Yeah, you are finally admitting to yourself that you are still fully in love with Oikawa Tooru. You know you should tell him how you feel now, but..is that really what you want? Will he leave you like Kuroo did after he will get bored? You didn't know..and at that moment all you can tell yourself is...

'Don't risk it'

But will you follow your mind? Or your heart?