Falling Backwards

Intentions

Month: November

ROCKY'S POV

Standing in front of me was a person I had hoped I would never see again. The person I made the biggest mistake of my life with. Alyson said she owed me for talking to her parents for so long, they were judgmental but not too terrible. She owed me nothing after finding Kelsie here. "Alyson you owe me nothing. Kelsie?" I questioned, she just looked at me. Why was she here? This was my birthday party! "Rocky?" She said, almost expectantly. She saw me when I came in and she didn't leave. Why the fuck is she here? Riker came over and kissed her on the cheek, 'No.' I thought. Oh god no.

"So I see you met my girlfriend!" He grabbed her hand and smiled. She smiled back at him. "Yeah, we know each other." I said to him. He smiled, "Alright! That's awesome. We could double date sometime!" He looked to me then Alyson, "No!" Kelsie and I said in unison. "Um," she said, looking at Riker, "I wouldn't want to intrude. You three are such good friends!" I nodded quickly, "Yeah, and I wouldn't want an old couple like us to bother a new relationship like yours." Alyson looked curiously at me, "I think it'd be fun... Rocky?" I nodded, "Maybe,"

"I'm Alyson," she smiled, sticking out her hand to the girl, "Kelsie," she smiled brightly. "I've heard about you," Kelsie muttered. Riker gave her a little look and whispered something in her ear, "We'll be going to um," he smiled deviously, "Do something else," Alyson smiled awkwardly and looked at me. We both knew where they were going. "Okay," I said, "See y'all a little later," Alyson turned to me, "Rocky!? What the hell was that, she seemed nice!"

"Um, can we talk about this at home, after you give me my present?" I wrapped my arms around her waist, moving them slowly to her ass. "Stop that!" She said to me. "Who was that girl?!" I rolled my eyes, "I don't want to ruin your night." She looked sternly, "Who?" I looked down and whispered, "That was the girl I slept with," She went silent, looking down as if she was hurt. I wanted her out of our lives just as much as Alyson, "And she's Riker's girlfriend?" She questioned. I nodded. "I'm so sorry, I don't know how they know each other. I had only just met her the night we uh, anyway, but I don't know how they know each other! And then she came to the party and why she didn't leave when she saw me, I don't know!" Alyson dragged me to the dance floor and took my hands to dance.

"I'm sorry she's here," she said to me, "You're taking this so cooly Alyson?" She sighed, "Well, I mean, I'm upset she's here and I'm upset they're together, but I feel worse for you. She doesn't know I even know you two slept together and maybe we should keep it that way." I looked at her, "Well, babe obviously Riker doesn't know she and I slept together, maybe I can talk to her before she happens to tell Riker." Alyson smiled at me, "I love when you get all intense, it's so hot," she kissed me while we danced.

"Go talk to her honey, I'll go find Rydel or something." I looked seriously, "Are you sure?" She nodded. I kissed her and squeezed her hand. I walked to find Riker and Kelsie sitting on a bench together talking. "Hey Rike, um Rydel wants you for something," He nodded, kissing Kelsie and going away. I sat down by her. "What the hell are you doing here?" I asked her sternly. "It's my boyfriends birthday party, of course I'm going to go. How was I supposed to know you were the same Rocky I knew."

I shook my head, "But then you saw me come through the door," "It's Riker's birthday! I was going to stay for him, I just thought I could avoid you." I sighed, "Well, my girlfriend and I are back together obviously and I told her I knew you from concert." I decided to lie and let Kelsie go on thinking Alyson knew nothing. "Will you tell Riker you know me from a concert?" She nodded, "That works because I met him at one of your concerts..." I glared at her, "Why were you at one of our shows!?"

"I was trying to get in touch with you." "Why?" "No reason." "Well I call bullshit. There had to be a reason." She looked at the ground, "I wanted to go out with you." I shook my head, "No no no." "We could have been something Rocky!" "No. We couldn't have. I LOVE Alyson." She smirked, "Yet, you slept with me while she sat at home alone and pregnant with your baby." I looked stunned, "She had my family behind her, I was stupid. So so so stupid, but this" I gestured to me and her, "No. Not happening ever." She rolled her eyes, "I've got Riker anyway. Plus he's better in bed!" "Oh ew ew ew. I didn't need to know that. And no jokes about that day! Riker doesn't know and I'd like to keep it that way." She sighed, "I'll tell Riker I know you from the concert." "I told Alyson already." I lied. "And the rest of the family will know nothing of us ever." She nodded. "Fine."

We sat awkwardly until Riker came over and kissed her, "Aw, my brother and my girlfriend hanging out! It's like me and Alyson!" "Haha," I laughed, "Not exactly," Alyson found her way over to me and sat down next to me, "Baby, people are leaving now, you should start saying good night to them." Riker and I nodded, "Oh yeah! Babe, I should go do that too. Wait for me with Alyson?" Riker said to her. My breath hitched, "Okay Rike, let's go!" I kissed Alyson's cheek and walked away with my brother, hoping she could manage with Kelsie without me.

ALYSON'S POV

'Oh crap I'm sitting here with the girl my boyfriend cheated on me with.' I thought, 'No, no.' I corrected myself, 'I'm sitting with Riker's girlfriend. That's all.' "So," I began, getting her attention, "Where did you meet Riker?" "Oh, I was at the concert in south LA last week. My friend stormed the stage and security was going to hand her over to me, and there was Riker!" She laughed. "Are you and Riker close?" She asked me, "Well, yeah, when Rocky and I were-" 'Oh shit, she knows that,' I shook my head, "Rocky and I went through a rough patch and Riker lived with me." Her eyebrow rose, "Oh, he didn't mention that. Do you still live with him?" I shook my head, "No, he is living in our old apartment with Rydel and Ellington. Rocky, Ross, and I are living in our new house before the baby." She nodded, "Oh..." 'Well that went south.' I thought.

"So how did you and Rocky meet again?" Her eyes lit up oddly, "Oh," she looked away for a minute, a sign she was about to lie, which she was. "We met at the same concert. I, um, work for the record company a long ways down the line." She smiled awkwardly. 'Lies,' I thought. I smiled back to her.

We made awkward small talk until everyone expect Ross, Ellington, Rydel, Riker, Rocky, Me, and Kelsie were gone. Riker held her hand and kissed her head, "Wanna come back to my place?" She nodded, smiling at him. Rocky shuddered quietly and I took his hand. "Baby," I started. He looked at me. "Let's go home?" Ross butt in, "I'll join you!" Rocky turned to him, "Love ya, bro, but ehst if you stay at Mom and Dad's tonight?" His eyes were wide with intensity. "But I want to-" Ross started. "ROSS!" I said, "May I speak with you?" I mouthed an 'I'll be right back' to them and took Ross by the hand.

"Ross, it's important if your brother and I have some alone time. Okay?" "Oh geez," he whined, rolling his eyes, "I don't wanna hear that all night, I'll sleep at home." He walked back over. "Well that was easy," I whispered to Rocky. "Shall we?" "We shall," he paused, looking at Ross, "After we bring Ross home." "We will," Rydel chimed in, "The apartment is just past Mom and Dad's house,"  "Cool!" Rocky grabbed my hand, "Home we go," I smiled.

Riker, Kelsie, me, and Rocky were left in the parking lot. Riker and Rocky hugged, getting into the car and I hugged Kelsie, "It was nice to meet you! Maybe I'll be seeing more of you? We can double date or hang out if you'd like." She smiled and then it turned sour when Riker started the engine and closed his door. "Yeah, only if I have to Alyson." "What?" I asked, surprisingly. "Look, I know you have your little relationship with Rocky, but let's face it, how strong is it? How do you know he won't leave you again? That's right, I know he left you. Riker and I are doing good right now and you aren't going to screw it up if Rocky leaves you again and you need a crutch. You can't have Riker anymore. Okay?" She walked over to her side of the car and I stood there stunned, "Oh, and I'm the one Rocky slept with."

She opened and shut her door and they drove off. "What was that?" Rocky asked, "A friendly good bye?" I shook my head, "No, she told me she was the one you slept with. As if it was supposed to be a surprise?" He looked shocked, "What?" "She just said that she thinks you're going to leave me again and that when you do I can't have Riker because he's hers." The tears formed in my eyes, "Why the fuck am I crying?" I said out loud, I nver cry, but this pregnancy has made me the most emotional person alive. "Alyson, look me in the eyes," Rocky said, turning to me, "I will NEVER EVER leave you. Ever again." He took a deep breath, "And as for Riker and Kelsie, she's a jealous bitch and that relationship will not last. If she was so eager to tell you what happened between her and I, then she'll tell Riker at some point to make him angry at me. She'll ruin it for herself. Okay?" He took my hand.

I nodded and turned to look out the window, feeling like it had happened all over again. I felt like the lies, the cheating, the fighting had happened all over again. It was the worst feeling I could have ever had in my entire life and on top of it all a part of me still believed that Kelsie was right.