Broken (Sequel to Keeping Secrets)

Chapter 8.

His teeth grazed my nipple and a moan escaped my lips. His right hand squeezes my bottom and his left hand tugs on my hair. My head falls back, giving him full access to my neck. He nips at the skin and another moan escapes my lips. I start to rock my hips against the bulge in his jeans.

"Baby," He whisper seductively. He pushes my head forward and my lips make contact with his. He stands up and lays us on the bed. He kisses down my front, sucking on each nipple on the way down. He kisses my stomach in various places and I giggle when his facial hair tickles my skin. He tugs on my panties but I refuse his gesture.

"No," I protest.

"I need this, Danielle," He whispers softly, not daring to look at me. "I need to make you feel good. I need it," His words so soft and full of.. love? Lust? Is he afraid that he's lost me for good? He hasn't lost me, he never lost me.

"Okay," I nod and swallow quietly. I already asked him to touch me, I can't take that away from him. He need's this, we need this. He slowly pulls my panties down my legs and tosses them aside to lie with my, his, T-shirt. 

"God, you're so beautiful," He kisses right below my belly button and I gasp quietly. "Are you okay?" He reaches up and rubs my cheek. 

"Yes," I smile and he removes his hand. 

"If you want to stop at any time, just tell me, okay?" I nod and he face turns stern. "I mean it, Danielle, I don't want to hurt you. Physically or emotionally,  not again," I give another nod and he leans his head down between my legs. 

I can feel his hot breath on my core, making me mourn for his touch, any touch. He kisses my clit and I almost climax right then and there. He begins so move his tongue up and down, in and out, his name rolls of my lips so many times, I lost count. My hands clinch the sheets and my hips buckle.  

"Not yet, baby," He kisses me once more before undressing quickly. He pulls a condom from his pocket and rolls is down his length casually. He's done that too many times, too many times for my liking. I don't need to be thinking about that, but I have to remember he's not mine and I'm not his. He could fuck me and leave me stranded in whatever the hell this place is called for all I know. But I trust him. I trust him with my whole heart and soul. 

"Norman," I prop myself up on my elbows and his face turns white. 

"You don't want it, do you? I'm sorry, Danielle. We're moving too fast I'm-"

"That's not what I need to ask you," I cut him off. "What are we? I mean, after we do this," I say pointing to our naked bodies. "What are we going to be? I trust you, I just, I can't help but not trust you, I just, I don't want to be hurt again, especially by someone I'm madly in love with," I blurt out. 

"You still love me?" I sit up and he kneels in front of me, wrapping his arms around my waist. "After everything? All this shit I put you through? And tonight? You still love me?" I close my eyes and nod. 

"How can I not? And to be completely honest with you, I didn't even try. Well, I drank here and there with Jer, but it never made you leave my mind. It always made it worse." He shakes his head and chuckles. 

"Tell me about it," He whispers. "I saw you with that guy at the club, I saw him kiss you, I figured you'd moved on, the way he kissed you, I hated it. You know why I hated it so much? Because I used to kiss you like that. I used to hold your body like that. You used to be mine, all mine, and I fucked up. I fucked up so many times and I just, I can't forgive myself for what I've done to you,"

I change the subject, quickly pressing our lips together.It's different, we're different. Something I haven't felt in a long time fills my body, passion. His tongue licks my bottom lip and I open, allowing him to explore my mouth with his. He removes his lips from mine to sit up. I groan causing him to chuckle under his breath. 

"Sorry, I don't want to use this," He pulls the condom off and throws it to the other side of the room. "I want to be able to feel you closer than that would have let me," He gives a slight smile and leans back down to me. He kisses me again and takes his length in his hand, placing it at my slit. 

He eases in and I close my eyes, biting down on my lip but quickly let it go and moan loudly. He kisses my forehead and pushes all of the way in. I gasp for air and bite down hard on the crease of his neck. He presses his forehead against mine, pushing in again and again. 

"Danielle," He moans in my ear. 

He speeds up, slamming our bodies together. Each time he slams into me, he hits my spot and I cry out. I cry out again and again. He presses his lips to mine and my hands hold his face, making sure he doesn't go anywhere. Our kiss deepens, passionate thrusts are continued, soft moans come from his mouth.

"Norman, I'm-" 

"Give it to me, Danielle. You can trust me, I won't hurt you again, I will never hurt you again. I will give you anything and everything you ask for, I will be the best man I can be. For you. For us. Everything I do from this moment on, is for you. I love you." His voice is hoarse and his breathing is heavy, the heaviest I've ever heard him breath during sex. He continues to slam into me and I explode, moaning his name loudly. I feel him stiffen and twitch inside me and his thrusts become sloppy. He collapses on top of me, pressing his head against my chest. 

"I promise."