Shoot or Die. (August Alsina)

MaMa..

August Pov

I was pissed . why would anybody want to kill my mom ? she was the nicest women ever. she been there for me every . damn . time. Why ?! WHY?! , that's all I could scream. Now I have nobody to talk to , Nobody to ACTUALLY listen . I'm lost , I feel abandoned

Later on that day my phone's been blowing up , I put on do not disturb & took a nap . I woke up to 30 new messages & 4 missed calls . Some from J . Maybe , I could talk to her

TallNiggaA - sorry , I was sleep.

ShawtyJ- it's ok , are you alright ?

TallNiggaA - actually no , can I come by I need somebody to talk to .

ShawtyJ- Yea sure c'mon .

And with that I took a quick shower put on some clothes and walked out . Nothing serious , a shirt with some basketball shorts and my nike slides . When I got in the car I just bawled out in tears . I want to know who did this to my mother . I want revenge .

I pulled up to J's house and knocked , when she opened it she looked concerned "oh yea , u do need someone to talk to , come in" she said walking away putting sleeping CJ in his bed .

J Pov

His eyes are blood shot red , he looks like he hasn't had sleep in days , I wonder what's wrong .

When I put CJ to sleep in his bed and walked downstairs to talk to him .

I sat on the couch and looked him straight in his eyes . "Talk, I'm all ears." he couldn't speak , he was frozen . He was just starring up looking at my ceiling . I was there waiting for him to get his words out . I want to be there for him , he was there for me .

He took a deep breath and leans his head on my shoulder , "My moms got gunned down. 5 to the chest , 1 to the head .." after he said that I took him into a hug , he was just crying and crying bawling out his tears . He cried for almost 20 minutes straight , I mean who wouldn't ? Your mom is the one person always there for you . Teaches you right from wrong supports u teaches u everything you know , motivates you. I try my best to do all that for my son. His breathing gets heavy "Fuck my life , she did everything for me , she was there for me all the time ! I want revenge . " I look at him with a questioned look "what kind of revenge " I said . He looked down "I want them to know the pain they out my moms through , hell the person got her prolly got my brother too " he said looking down , " August .. Sometimes , the best revenge is success ." I smiled , "My dad use to always tell me that . " he looked up "what about your mom?"

August Pov

when I asked about her mom she was I the verge of crying , "My mom use to sell her body on the street & one man got her .. raped her , & kilt her. I was about 5 , so ever since then my dad took care of me. " I saw her starting to cry and I put her in my arms and just rocked her back and forth , Losing anybody is a bad feeling but loosing somebody as close as your parents . That's the most painful shit anybody can get .

"Mommy?" CJ said . we turned around & he was there with his onesies on . "Uh , I was just checking on you . Can I watch a little bit of TV with you guys?" he said looking down . He smiled and walked toward CJ . I kneeled down to his level , "You got those 3 page essays for me ?" he chuckled "nah you don't need then , I see my mom really likes you and I like you to so there's no worry" I smiled and grabbed his hand and walked him to the couch. " What you wanna watch little man?" I said plopping on the couch by him. "Spongebob " I turned on some recording of spongebob that they had and watched it . It was almost close to 12 and J was almost sleep "Oh August . I quit my job ." she said smiling half way asleep . "really ? how come?" I said putting my arm around her , " I realized it not good , I know it was fast cash but .. it wasn't the way i want to earn cash." I shook my head in agreement , "so where are you now?" I asked "I'm a waiter at IHOP " she laughed