Shoot or Die. (August Alsina)

Downtown.

My birthday September the 3rd

So, August31st

Uh, when I was, I was sleep, letting the day go by, you know.

I wake up and I got, like, 30 missed calls on my shit.

And so I woke up and I called my cousin back.

And it was like "Man, what's up, ya heard me?"

And a nigga, nigga told me a nigga killed my brother, man

So from that point on it was always like, man, you got it either this or that.

And a nigga can't choose that route, ya heard me.

Somebody's gotta survive.

So that's what it was.

August Pov

I woke up with my alarm going off on my phone. Grind time . I hopped out of the bed and walked towards the bathoom to start my hygiene . I don't feel like leaving the house so , i'll just stay in the "at home studio."

I started my shower while grabbing my axe body wash . I stood under the shower letting the hot water drip down onto me. I couldn't help but smile. Thinking about yesterday with what J did warmed my heart. Awe , here i got being all soft and shit. I finished up my shower and washed my hair while i was in there.

I grabbed my towel and started to brush away at my teeth.

"Skinny Nigga with Minty Clean breath" i smiled while licking my top row of teeth and walked out of the bathroom to see J staring at her wrist.

"Babey , you good?" i asked while sitting beside her . She didn't speak , she just looked a me with her eyes full of tears. She tried to speak but , no words could come out.

She threw the cover off of her and climbed onto my lap and snuggled her head into my wet neck.

"I have to tell you something , August" she said finally speaking.

"I'm listening." i said while rubbing her back. She sniffled a few times and looked me in my eyes

"I met up with Ricky." she said trying to contain her tears. I clenched my jaw , my whole body got tensed. I didn't say anything . I couldn't . I pulled her off of me and onto the bed while i started to walk around the room counting to 10

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"babe?" she said to me

I sat down on edge of the bed beside her while rubbing my face up and down. I took a few breathes before i spoke.

"Why?" i said while looking straight ahead and bouncing my leg up and down. Which kind of felt weird knowing that im naked under this towel. Oh well ,

"I wanted him to know about CJ leaving us." she said while rubbing her wrist.

"Why?" i answered again , "He didn't care for him while he was walking this planet , so why is it his business that MY son has left.I know that's not my blood son but he'll it should've been! Why would you even go with out me , NO , scratch that , why would you go anyway?!" i said while standing up semi-yelling . I didn't want to yell at her but i lelt my anger get the best of me.