Shoot or Die. (August Alsina)

SmartPhones.

So I can come to her and lie right to her face

I don't know what I'm gonna say

But I know that I'm gonna say

Whatever it takes

I'm a run to her and lie right to her face

I don't know what I'm gonna say

But I know that I'm gonna say

Whatever it takes

August Pov

I woke up in Lloyd's house with some chick laying on me naked and i have a massive headache. I looked at my phone and noticed i called J last night. What? I don't remember calling her. I also see i have 10 missed calls  from her. Damn. I pocket called her.

I threw the girl off of me and i got dressed "Papi , where you going?" she asked me in a foreign accent. I looked at  her and shooked my head. I put on my shoes and headed out . I was in the car trying to put my story together. Sometimes you have to lie to your loved ones. There's no way im loosing J . Not today. Not ever

I pulled up into the driveway and i saw that she was there . I walked in and threw my keys on the table by the door. I told the kids hey and gave them all kisses and gave cj dap. He said he not with that lovey dovey stuff. I walked up the stairs into me and J's room and i didn't see her . Checked the studio. She not there . Checked the theatre , not there. "Kids where's J?" They all pointed towards the pool . Duh August.

I walked outside and closed the door to the house quietly. I walked over to her took my shoes off , rolled my pants up and set my feet in the pool . We didnt say anything . She did a few sniffles and wiped her eyes .

"Why?" was all she said . "Then you have the nerve to call my phone." she scoffed and looked up at the view we had.  "I was high , and i guess i pocket called you or something. Everything I did last night was a mistake. J i love you , not whatever her name is." she chuckled "wow , you fucked her and have no idea what her name was. You know August i got hurt bad in the past , physically & mentally and you doing this doesn't help at all ." I was speechless. She got up and went inside , i wanted to chase her but something told me to give her , her space.

J Pov

There's no words of how i feel right now. I usually don't let dudes get me in my feelings , but August was different. He's the father figure to my son & since his nieces mom passed , i'm all they have for a mother figure. I want to leave but i don't want to , maybe i just need a break.

I got dressed and walked downstairs . "Where you going J?" August asked me poping off the couch. "The mall" i simply said and slammed the door.

I'm not going to the mall. I only have one friend here in Atlanta .. that's Dwayne. I called him while pulling out of the driveway. "Hey Dwayne" i said smiling "Wassup shawty?" i laughed "Meet me at Starbucks in 20 okay?" He agreed and hung up. This isn't considered cheating .. i dont think .

***

"Wow , so he cheated while he was high and pocket dialed you?" Dwayne asked me. I shook my head yes. He took a sip of his iced coffee. "How's CJ?" he asked me "He's being CJ." we both laughed. "Thanks for being here for me Dwayne." he smiled "always" we  got up and walked towards the door. He hugged me and i kissed his cheek. "Bye J." he said walking off . Damn..

I walked inside greeted by the kids . "Auntie J were hungry!" KayKay said. I put my purse down and took off my heels "Uh , ya'll want fried chicken?" They cheered "with macarooni!!" Mya said "Gotchu"

"Uncle Aug , what's wrong?" Chay asked . I looked up at August he played with the macarooni and shook his head "I'm not hungry" he put the rest of his food with the rest and walked upstairs . I sighed "You guys finish up and take yall's baths" they all finished and ran upstairs . "Goodnight!" they screamed from the stairs "Goodnight love you guys!"

"Love you too" they all said.

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August Pov

I feel bad , ever since she got back she's ignored me , i couldn't eat . I just sat in our room blasting music.My pandora started playing Fall For Your Type by Jamie Foxx & Drake

haha throwback...

I’ve been down this road before and yeah I skidded but forget i

it’s feeling like the second chance and it's the first impression

and I heard it’s nothing new except for someone new

but how you supposed to find the one when anyone will come with you

talking to myself but I never listen,

cuz man it’s been a while, and I swear that this ones different

I was on the verge of crying. J is the only girl that made me feel this way . I had my music blasting and i didn't hear her walk in . She turnt on the lamp and smiled. "August" she said poking my shoulder making me open my eyes . I quickly wiped my tears , sat up on the headboard and paused my music. She took my headphones off and sat on my lap and put her head in my neck.

"I've been thinking ," she said was tracing my tattoos ", i'll admit i was thinking about ending it with me and you , but something told me to stay with you , your a father figure to my son , you got me out of stripping and brought me into your home , you've treated me like a man should treat a women. I know we'll have problems in our relationship and we have to face them instead of running from them. I love you August , from the bottom of my heart and i mean that".

I wrapped my arms around her and squeezed her tight. "I love you too J , and i swear i didn't mean to do that I won't ever do that again I promise , i don't want to hurt you or do anything that'll make you not come back in this bed at the end of the day. You CJ and my nieces are all i need and have ,  no matter what we go through please promise me that you'll stay?" A tear dropped from her eye and i wiped it with my thumb. "I promise" she kissed me and laid me back while straddling me. No way i'm letting this one get away.