Tragedy

Noah

I screwed up. I don't know if I can fix it.
Yesterday started out as a pretty good day. I woke up and met Bella at the cafeteria. Something seemed off with her. She seemed upset, irritable, miserable almost. I asked her if chemo was getting to her and she brushed it off.
"Are you sure it's not chemo?" I asked, concerned.
"I'm fine."
The rest of the day went by slowly. Something was wrong. She didn't text me back, she never called me, never came over to my room. Finally, I go to her room and quietly knock on her door.
"Come in," she squeaked.
"Baby, what's been going on? You haven't been yourself."
"What's been going on with Mackenzie?"
"What do you mean? She's our friend."
"You seem to be with her more and making her feel more special then you are me."
"I'm sorry babe." I say, going in for a hug.
"No," she said firmly. I got the hint and backed off. "I'm not in the mood."
"What do you need me to do?"
"I'm not sure you can fix this right now."
"Yes I can. What do I need to do?"
"Fine. Make me believe there's nothing going on."
"Easy. There is nothing going on with me and Mack."
"You see, it's not that easy," she said rising off her feet. "And don't call her Mack. That's between me and her and she's told me she didn't agree to letting you call her Mack. You ripped my trust for you to shreds." Her voice was starting to rise. I know where this is going.
Rushing to calm her down before it got too big, I made everything worse.
"Please, calm dow-"
"No I will not calm down. You hurt me. Do you understand that? I love you.
"I love you too."
"Do you? Be honest, do you?"
"Of course. You're the only girl I've ever loved unconditionally. No one will ever get between us."
"I don't know if I believe that Noah! Right now, you're the one who is getting between us!"
"I'm getting in between us? You were the one who didn't tell me you were uncomfortable. If you would've told me the way you felt I would've done something about it!"
"Really? I know you! You would've 'reassured' me that nothing was going on and I still would've had my suspicions!"
"Who's fault is that?"
"Yours! I can't help my gut feeling! Mack often wanted to leave because she knew how I was feeling!"
"Because you told her!"
"NO! I DIDN'T WANT TO TELL HER BECAUSE I WANTED YOU TO BE HAPPY TOO! BECAUSE SHE'S YOUR FRIEND TOO! I WOULD NEVER WRECK YOUR FRIENDSHIPS!!
"BUT YOU JUST DID!"
"I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING! YOU DECIDED TO TRY TO FIX IT WHEN IT WAS GETTING TO ME MOST!"
"AND WHEN DID IT START TO BOTHER YOU?"
"LAST THURSDAY WHEN MACK TOLD ME THAT SHE WANTED TO LEAVE BECAUSE SHE WAS WORRIED I WOULD BE UPSET!"
"WELL GUESS WHAT? YOU ARE! YOU DECIDED 'HEY! I'M GOING TO GET MAD AT THIS BECAUSE FOR ONCE, SOMEONE WASN'T PAYING ATTENTION TO ME BECAUSE I'M A SELFISH, ATTENTION SEEKING DRAMA QUEEN!'" That's where I knew I crossed the line.
"You're right," she said, voice lowered to barely a whisper, "I am.
"Babe, wait."
"No. Close the door when you're done in here." She said, grabbing her phone and leaving.

A.N. Hey guys!! Wow this was intense!😂😂 Sorry I've been off for a few days. We've had really important state testing and I've kinda been focusing on that. On another note, would y'all be up to a qotd kinda thing? If so comment your answers to today's question which is: Do you have a crush? If so what's the initial of their first name? Mine's 'A'. He probably knows I like him though😂😂😂 Anyway, I love y'all so much from the bottom of my heart and I'll see y'all later, byee!!!💕💕💕