𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐆 𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐆𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐄𝐍 𝐈𝐒 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊

Unhidden Chapter: Who Is Ghil?

 Unhidden Chapter: Who is Ghil?

Life. Life is so hard. 

Well as for me, sobrang hirap ng buhay ko. All my life, I was stuck in a mansion with so very high walls, guards everywhere and everything has a rule. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. I was so innocent. Hindi ko alam kung paano ako makakalabas sa pamamahay na ito.

Ano kaya ang mga bagay na nandun sa labas? Something wonderful? Beautiful? I don't know. My parents won't let me know.

I tried a hundred times of escaping without my parents' consent pero wala akong magawa. I was so small and the barriers in front of me in so big. I was a child back then, walang alam sa paligid nya. All I want is to escape, I just want to see the things out there. I want to crush the walls and see the beauty at its back pero wala akong magawa.

I was so sad for my sister, Gianna. Her life is so simple, playing dolls in her room, watching TV then play some video games, sleep in her room, eat her meal and please repeat the routine again. Yun ang buhay namin sa loob ng mansion. Yes! We got everything we want but what I want to go outside those walls. Wala pa akong pakielam nun sa pera, sa gamit, sa dami ng laruan or gadgets, gusto ko lang makalabas.

"You can't go out, Ghil. Listen to your mother. Its dangerous out there."

Iyan ang laging paliwanag ng aking ama. Bakit? Ano ba ang meron sa labas? I still want to know! I still want to check what's over there. Pero wala akong ibang magawa kundi sumunod.

My life was a total hell. A hell where I can't escape. Kahit ano pang gawin ko, hindi ako makawala sa mga rehas na para akong nasa kulungan. Minsan, dumating ako sa time na sa sobrang depressed ko, I tried suicide. Wala eh, nahuli parin ako nila Mama. They try to heal me up using some doctors but can't they get me?!

I want freedom! 

Until one time, nakakita ako ng tyansa para tumakas at maisama ang aking kapatid. Well, hindi naman totally takas. Lalabas lang kami sandali at babalik rin naman kami before sun rise. That is the time kung saan maga-out of town ang aming mga magulang at magkakaroon ng business trip sa Japan. Kinuha ko ang tyansa na iyon para makatakas.

And its such a success!

Nagawa naming makatakas pero kaakibat noon ang isang napakalaking trahedya. Doon ako nagsimulang maniwala kay Mama na sobrang delikado pala sa labas ng aming bahay. Sobrang delikado pala sa likod ng mga nagtataasang mga pader. Guns, bombs, noises. 

Death.

Iyon pala ang nakaabang sa labas ng aming bahay. Hindi ako makapaniwala. I was so small to experience those things but what is more affected in my sister. I left her in her hiding spot, not knowing if its safe or not. Napaka-tanga ko at iresponsable. I thought that my sister died. Akala ko namatay na sya dahil nung binalikan ko sya sa kanyang pinagtataguan, wala na sya.

My parents' cursed me after that. I was grounded for almost a year. Hindi ako lumalabas ng aking kwarto. Self-study hanggang sa makatapos ako ng elementarya. Sa bahay lang ako, bawal nang lumabas. Madalang na akong kinakausap ng aking mga magulang. They won't even ask me if I'm okay, if I'm hungry, if I need to something or what. 

Wala. Doon ko naramdamang mag-isa na lang talaga ako.

Naalala ko pa na isang araw, I tried peeking at my parents' room at naabutan kong umiiyak si Mama in my father's shoulders, asking kung babalik pa ang aking kapatid. Napaiyak rin ako nung mga oras na yun. Ang laki pala ng gawak ng aking pagkakamali. Hindi ako makapaniwala. Feeling ko na ako na yung pinakamasamang kriminal sa lahat. Ako na yung pinakamasamang kapatid sa lahat.

All I want to do is to know the things out there. Hindi ko naman ginusto na mapahamak kami ni Ghil. Innocence is killing me back then. Hello! I'm too old to be stuck up inside the mansion. Nasakin na nga ang lahat, high branded clothes and shoes, diamond accessories, fastest wi-fi connection, air-conditioned room, lahat na...pero hindi ko alam kung ano yung nasa labas. I'm born to experience things, extraordinary things, not being stuck up inside my room, reading books or whatsoever.

Oo, nagsisisi ako. Pero ako nga ba yung mali in the first place? Hindi. Hindi ko din alam.

HIndi ko akalaing sisisihin ako nang lahat nang tao ganun. Tila ako na yung pinakamasama pero sana pinakinggan muna nila yung side ko diba? Hindi yung bigla silang manghuhusga.

Inubos ko yung wine sa hawak kong baso bago umupo sa aking swivel chair.

"I am Ghil Jade Ianna Salvador...and this is me."

A/N: I'm writing a new series of teen fiction books. Mondragon Series #1 - #3. For our series no. 1, we have December Mondragon. Please stay tuned until I published my new and well-refined works. Thank you.