i'm only human//matthew espinosa

Chapter 11

I lay in bed and thought everything over. I like Matthew, I like him a lot but.. I can't let him be hurt because of me. I text him saying 'friends?' i regretted it.

I just wish life was easier.

I closed my eyes and felt a tear roll down my cheek. Soon enough i was asleep and i'd have to go back to school tomorrow and face Matt again.

**

I walked into school with my head down avoiding conversation. Suddenly i felt a hand on my shoulder, of course, it was Hailey's. I flinched and her and her friends stood in a crowd laughing. I tried to walk past them but they wouldn't let me out. "Matt doesn't like you, nobody does!" They shouted.

I looked around them, i saw a gap. It was now or never. I pushed through the gap and ran. I ran down the hall, and saw them running behind me? A tear rolled down my cheek then fell off with the speed i was running. I got to the girls bathroom and locked myself in a cubical.

I tucked my knees into my chest, and lay back on the toilet. Suddenly the doors where shaking, i was terrified. "We only want to talk?" Hailey said laughing. "Listen you little freak, if you don't come out we Will come in!" I cried more.

I heard quiet. Then suddenly the door swung open. Haileys top minion Steph had kicked the door open. Hailey leaned in the cubical and grabbed my collar. She slammed me against the wall, which triggered a flood of cackles. "Aww you been crying?" She said in the fakiest sympathetic voice.

She dropped my collar and i fell on her knee. My rib bounced off and i fell on the floor. "Next time i ask for something, you do it ok?" Hailey shouted in my face. She slapped me hard on the cheek then stood back up.

I looked at her Doc Martins with tear filled eyes. She pulled her foot back then swung it forward hard against my rib. "freak" Steph laughed. Then pulled me back up. She threw me back against the wall. "what an ugly biatch" Hailely laughed before walking back outside.

Now this isn't fair? I haven't done anything and I'm beat for it? This generation is so ruined people get pleasure for putting others through hell? Well you know what f your generation - I'm done?

I staggered back into a cubical and locked the door. I fell on the toilet seat and cried a lot. I looked at my stitches along my arm, i picked one out and watched the blood rise.

I pulled my sleeve down, and wiped my eyes. Outside the cubical i saw somebody. It was Carter.

Oh no! What did he hear? He might tell matt! He will think bad of me! I shook my head, and felt tears brim when i stared at him.

He leaned forward and pulled me into a hug. "its okay" He said. "no its not?" I replied. "it will be though" he answered. "are you gonna tell matt?" i asked nervously. "not if you don't want me too?" He said. Thank God! "don't please" I said. He nodded hesitantly.

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I got sent home early because i was 'sick'. I sat on the end of my bed, Matt text me. 'COME OUTSIDE NOW!!xoxo'. I told Bob and my dad i was going to get some air. They allowed me.

I went outside and saw Matt. He didn't seem happy. He held out his hand and i took it. He walked me down the street until we got to a bench.

"Alli" He said slowly.

"Matt" I replied.

"Carter told me" He said. I felt sick.

"told you what?" I asked as confused as i could act.

"Haileys group. What they did to you, they beat you up, and then that you hurt yourself, and you didn't even tell me" He seemed to get sterner throughout the answer.

"are you kidding?" I said back to him. I stood up.

"Do you know what its like to like somebody, maybe even love them? and have them dragged into an endless cycle of beating and name calling?" I said feeling tears brim.

"yeah i do" He answered. I scoffed.

"yeah right" i answered. "all you ever care about is yourself, well you know what im done." I finished.

"with what?" He said with shiny eyes.

"everything! but especially I'm done trying to let you in! just make your life easier and don't speak to me, again" I said a tear fell.

around the corner i saw Carter. That asshole.

I walked up to him fast. I wiped a tear away and shouted aggressively.

"how dare you?like how could you?" i said pointing at him. He held his hands up.

"i thought i was doing something nice actually?" He said he smirked.

"you fucking asshole!" I shouted. "i fucking hate you!" I finished. I pushed his chest hard.

"You said you wouldn't tell him and you did" I said. "I thought it was for the best" He said. Is he serious? I was so mad.

"are you kidding? for the best? your such an ass!" I said. I continued to hit him hard. Then Matt jogged over and tried pulling me away. I punched him as well.

"both of you just leave me the fuck alone, i hate you!" I said crying. I gave Matt a shove before storming off. Obviously my shoves were not harmful towards them, but it got my anger out. I walked home slowly and let the tears dry up.

I just want to sleep forever.

This was short sorry!! Hope you still liked it. Little drama going on for you! By the way just want to let everyone know I'm here, if you need anyone to talk to come to me. It can stay between us and either be anonymous or we become friends maybe? I just know what its like to feel alone, but when i realized I'm not it was better. So please don't hesitate to message me. Ok thanks.

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