i'm only human//matthew espinosa

Chapter 5

(A/N) Its a one week break off school here so i can update more regularly - thanks for reading loves! <3

I sat on the end of my bed, over thinking. I always do this to myself - i swear it hurts more than any name or beating could?

I felt tears slowly stream down my face. My heart was speeding up, i stood up and took a deep breath. I pushed open the balcony doors and felt the air hit my hard. I closed the doors behind me and looked down. I saw stones, grass, death;

I leaned back against the doors and fell down to the floor. I brought my knees to my chest, and then put my head in between them. I was shaking and scared. A couple of days. That's all i've been here for, two days in school. I'm hated. Also i wouldn't exactly say my dads made an effort to speak to me.

I picked up my phone but couldn't see it clearly. I wiped my eyes then looked again. Unknown number came up on the screen. I don't usually get direct texts. I unlocked the phone and read the text.

'Hey Alli! Is this your number, i think it is but i probably entered it in wrong!Anyway i just wanted to apologize oh and it me Matt' I smiled whilst reading it. I wiped the tear off my cheek and replied. 'no Matt its an axe murderer'.

'Well hello axe murderer do you know this Alli?' He sent back straight away. I thought about what to say 'jk is me Alli!' like seriously Alli - no kidding Sherlock!? 'Well Alli, I'm sorry' He replied. I smiled again, it was a real smile. One that made me feel all fuzzy and warm and happy.

'I shouldn't of been a bitch. I'm just not the happiest kid, ya get me?' I sent. I felt my cheeks restore to an 'unpuffiness'. I finally got a reply 'I get ya, speak later i gotta go'. I sent a smiley face. I looked up at the sky and saw stars shining one by one.

I checked the time, 9:45. I might as well get an early night? I went back inside and crawled under my covers. I poked my head over the top and to my surprise i fell asleep.

***

I woke up to loud crashing downstairs. I pushed back my covers and stood up. I checked the wall clock, it was 4am. I looked out the window, it was still dark. I grabbed an oversized jumper and threw it over my pants and top.

i opened my draw and rummaged through. I kept hearing crashing, then i heard my father yell. I opened my wardrobe and grabbed my wooden hockey stick. I held it up and opened the door. I looked down the hall and checked for anything.

The crashes were coming from downstairs. I slowly started making my way down, still holding the hockey stick up. I came to the bottom, the crashes were coming through the kitchen door. My father yelled, "Stay calm, your drunk!" I wondered weather he was talking to himself. Then i heard mumbling of somebody else.

Suddenly someone touched my shoulder, i turned round quickly and screamed. I dropped the hockey stick. Seriously if this was a murderer i did myself no favors! I looked quickly it was Bob. I calmed down a bit.

"Bob? What the hell! Are you trying to prank me? Whats all this crashing?" I asked confused.

"Alli c'mon go back to bed" He answered. Um no Bob, no.

"No! Not until you tell me what all this shouting is!" I said in a shout.

My dad came out the kitchen with blood on his hands, oh no! Was he a murderer? I was so confused. He closed the door behind him,

"Come on Alli, come with me" My Dad said. I picked the hockey stick up off the floor and walked back up the stairs. I walked into my room and sat on the bed.

I watched my dad walk across the room into the bathroom. He was washing the blood off his hands.

"Sorry for waking you, are you OK now?" He asked rubbing his fingers together under the water. "Um not really, why do you have blood on your hands?" I asked watching him. "Everything is crazy now" He grabbed a towel and dried his hands. "Soon everything will be explained alright?" He made his way over and sat on the end of my bed. I nodded, then got under the covers.

"Its all a surprise to me as well! Don't worry you will know soon enough?" He said with a big grin. I nodded again. I don't want to know soon, i want to know now. "So anyway, i've been really caught up in work. Do you like it here?" He asked. No, i hate it here dad. "Oh yeah, I have lots of friends and the work its good!" I lied. "That's great to here, as long as there not wild your friends can come over anytime. OK?" He said still smiling.

I saw the stubble around his mouth, its like a picture i once saw of him. It was his and my mothers wedding photo. His eyes were small and beady then too, only know his hairs slightly longer. "Well i have cleaning to do so sleep well!" He said brightly. Was that supposed to be a joke? I forced a small laugh out. He kissed my forehead then walked out.

Well that was weird, not as weird as whoever is downstairs though? I lay back and felt the pillow squish beneath me. It took me a while to fall asleep but i did eventually.

***

I woke up at 6am. There was no chance in me falling back asleep, i got up and switched my light on. I got on with my daily morning routine: shower, makeup, outfit, hair and grabbed my bag. It was about 7:15. I took my time, it was nice.

I unlocked my phone and had 2 texts. One off Becky and the other off Matthew. Becky :

B : Heyyy!

A : Hello,x

I waited for a response and clicked Matt.

M : Good Morning! <3

A : That was nice, good morning! :)

I text the both of them for about half an hour. I walked downstairs and noticed Bob was still cleaning mess up.

"Ready to go?" I asked him. It was a stupid question i know.

"Yeah go and sit in the car, I'll be out in 5" He said. I smiled and grabbed the keys.

I walked into the hall I noticed my Dad to the left. He was closing to big white doors, he hadn't slept. He smiled then jogged upstairs. I was still so confused?..

Yet I still went and sat in the car. Hopefully i would know soon right?

(A/N) So like i said before ill be updating more regularly. Let me know what you thought of this. Comment what you think this big mysteryy is.. oh exiting! Don't forget to vote, comment - i like feedback! :) Thanks

-t x