do you remember...

14

'Hey Cass where are you?' I say loud enough for Jordy to hear. I decided on catching up with Cass today and Jordy insisted on driving me to and from the coffee shop.

'I just got in, where are you?'

'I see you I'm coming in now give me a minute.' She gave me a nod, even though she couldn't see me, and hung up looking around for any signs of me.

'I'm going now.' I look to Jordy, finding his eyes deepening gazing at me.

'You don look like your going.' he said teasingly, snapping me out of my day dream.

'Very funny.' I roll my eyes playfully and go to open the door to his car.

'Wait.' He grabs onto my wrist pulling me back into the car, only closer to him this time.

'Yes.' I swallow when I feel my mouth start to water at the sight of his beautiful lips and whatehey'd done last-

'Be good, and call me if you need anything, and if anyone tries to talk to you that you don't like or if you start to feel sick and want to leave I'll b right here in the car. And if you-'

'I'm just having coffee with Cats, calm down.' I cup his jaw and smile at him sweetly. He cared so much and it was adorable.

'Yeah you're right,' he says and pauses for a bit. 'But you know I'm still here if-'

I roll my eyes in adoration and place a soft kiss on his lips shutting him up. My eyes close and I feel myself leave my body making me feel weightless and carefree.

Before I'm not able to control myself I pull away and whisper, 'two hours max, okay'

'Okay.' he replies kissing my cheek letting me go.

I make my way to the coffee shop and find Cass sat up at a table next to the window.

'Hey.' she smiled softly standing up and I pulled her into a hug.

'God we have so much to take about.' I sit her down and we both rode hot chocolates. So much for getting coffee with Cass.

I tell her everything. Everything that had happened with Jordy and I. it felt nice to have another girl to talk to, I don't know how I used to do it.

'So are you two together?' she asked and I almost cringed at the word. she smiled at my reaction and said, 'you're scared of your feelings for him, aren't you?'

'Who said I have feelings for him, yeah I'm attracted to him but-'

'You both admitted that you wanted to suck each others faces off when you were around one another I'm pretty sure that-'

'Because he's attractive, that doesn't mean I like him.'

'But you do.' She gives me sad smile. I look spat her my eyes pleading her to tell me what I've asked her a thousand time before. 'You know I can tell you anything Silver, I promised.'

'I know. I'm just so confused.' I sigh. 'He's my best friend and I don't want to lose him. I'm just scared that...' I pause unable even utter my next words.

'That you won't be good enough for him because you aren't who you used to be.' She looked at me wide eyed in realisation. I hadn't told her about that part of the night, when me and Jordy talked about me before all of this. I was almost glad I didn't have say it out loud and she just understood it. 'Silver you're crazy.' She gave me a small smile rolling her eyes at my obliviousness. 'I don't think you understand how badly that boy just wants you.'

'I-' I try to speak but nothing comes out. I don't know what to say.

'Don't tell him I told you this, but ever since you came back its like happiness had returned back into our lives, even the people that didn't know.' She was now holding my hand comfortingly. 'But for Jordy it was different, it's like he was able to breath again. And overtime he sees you he tells Saint it's like the stars had finally found there place in the sky after years of being lost.'

My mouth widened a bit at her last words. Stars.

When I was in the stages of coming out of my coma my doctors said I'd always be muttering things about stars. When I was awake they'd asked my what the stars had meant to me, but they didn't mean anything to me. Any more. I then discovered my tattoo and thought maybe it was better left a mystery because I had a feeling it didn't just end on my body.

I didn't want to ask anyone about it because I wanted it to be meaningless. I was afraid that someone would know what I was talking abound explain everything to me, and didn't want that. I just wanted it to be a stupid meaningless tattoo.

But he knew about it, or at least a little. He had to.

I try to push my thoughts to the back of my head once it started to ache from overthinking. I look over at Cass who stared at me with a questioning look.

I shake my head to clear it a bit more, 'how is Saint by the way.' I say with a knowing smirk.

'I don't know maybe you should ask him yourself, he says he misses you.'

'He sees me everyday.' I say confused at the slightly serious look on her face.

'Maybe you should just take a day off with your lover and spend some time with the boys.' She shrugs clearly seeing the confusion in my face.

Had I really made the boys feel like I only wanted to spend time with Jordy. I felt terrible at that thought.

'You know what, I'm going to call him right now.'I say picking up my phone as we both giggle at my tone.

'On second thought, he can wait a bit, my phones going to die.'

We talk a bit more before we've been there for about two and a half hours.

She hugs me goodbye and heads the opposite way to her car.

Just as I look up to search for Jordy in the spot I left him, I see him already standing out the car waiting for me.

'Stalker much?' I giggled at him. He laughed and we both sat in the car in silence. 'You still up for that swim.' I look up at him.

'Yeah, Saints coming over later though, you okay with that?'

'Of course I am, I needed t talk t him anyway.' I shrugged as he now started driving. 

I couldn't help but watch him the whole car journey back to his place.

The way his eyes darkened when they focused on the road like it was the most important thing ever.

He had new contacts now but he still wore his glasses because I liked how they looked on him.

I couldn't help but feel slightly turned on. Okay, I was extremely turned on right now.

I reach over to him and place my hand on top of his on the gears. I saw a small genuine smile plaster itself on him lips.

I grazed my hand up grazing over his arm reaching his shoulder.

I felt his whole body tense up. I leaned over to kiss his neck to ease his stress, but this just made him tense even more.

'We're almost here.' He tried to say in a neutral tone, seeming unaffected by my touch.

I go to run my hands over his slight bulge in his trouser. He just flinched at pushed my hand away.

I frowned. I knew he didn't just forget everything he said and that happened, and he wasn't just randomly angry at me, but I couldn't help but feel slightly neglected.

The feeling made my stomach turned and I hoped I would never have to feel it again.