do you remember...

22

I've literally disappeared off the face of this earth. I've just been going through a really tough time and just as I thought everything was perfect I had my heart broken again and again by the same guy who I'm still clinging onto by the way smh.

I guess it's just been really hard to write a book about love when everything just reminds me off him and this past months has consisted of me trying to write and end up crying myself to sleep.

I feel like this is so bad but I just feel bad for not updating. It genuinely means so much when someone sends me a message or comment saying how much you like the book and want an update, I feel like I'm able to make someone in the world happy even if it's not the someone I was hoping for.

But anyway kids, read on...

'I have no idea what you're in about.' Saint shakes his head defensively.

'Hmm okay.' I let it go, for now.

Saint is next to spin the bottle and karma decides to play the game with us too because the bottle landed on me.

'Silver was that a truth you said you'd take? Perfect!' He says patronisingly.

I laugh not the slightest bit worried because what could Saint possibly ask that he does know already.

'Honestly have you and Jordan had sex yet?' He asked genuinely curious.

'We've already told you we haven't.' Jordy whined.

'Yeah but now Mama Shay isn't here and you don't have to lie.' Saint grins.

'We weren't lying.' I simply said.

'Well that's boring I personally think you should drink for the sole purpose of being boring.'

I shrugged with a laugh and took a quick shot, without a care in the world and leaned back into Jordy his hands now on my waist.

We played a couple more straight forward basic round before it got interesting consisting of me and Jordy flirting and teasing each other.

Joey span the bottle and it landed on Cass. At this point they were all a bit tipsy or very drunk, I could never tell with these lot.

'Cass I dare you to kiss who you find most attractive.' Joey shouted out and to everyone's surprise Cass got up out of her place and without hesitation and went to kiss Saint.

A huge smile spread on my face and Jordy just sat there in confusion.

'And that's Saint's special someone.' I whispered in his ear waiting for his reaction.

Everyone was quiet for a minute, all of us looking at Jordy.

'Dont fuck this up kid.' He told Saint and smiled at them both.

It was a beautiful moment. It was so simple and probably didn't mean much to an outsider, but knowing the pain Cass has been through and how protective Jordy was of her i couldn't help but blink back my tears seeing Jordy let go of Cass as his responsibility and trusting Saint with her heart.

'Oh my god, Silver are you going to cry?' Cass said through giggles.

'No, god no. I just don't know whats wrong with me jesus.' i laughed through my tears of happiness.

'Okay I think that's enough for today.' Jordy said starting to lift me up off his lap, then getting up himself.

'Whats the time?' Joey rubs his eyes extremely drunk.'