[1] rewired | jachary janiel [✔]

[✉]confessions

✏ zach ✏
"with a little faith, your tears turn to ecstasy"
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i almost kissed jack. i almost got to touch him in ways no one could ever do. i almost confessed that i loved him and it scared me. it made me so nervous that i could feel so strongly for a person. i knew he didn't feel the same way he thought we were just friends and it crushed me to think about it.

on camera, jack and i were best buddies. we were always together. off camera, jack and daniel were stuck to the hip and it frustrated me. how could they be so close, i wish that could be us.

it all brings us back to the point that i almost confessed; i remember it all too clearly. jack was laying down on my stomach and i started to thread my hands through his silky, auburn hair.

then, before i even registered it, the words rolled off my tongue, skimmed my lips, and hung in the soothing atmosphere.

"i love you, jack,"

i didn't mean it like that, though. i wanted him to rise up and kiss me.

"love you too, zach,"

those words were carelessly used. they were meant to be kept in a safe right next to heart, but no. they riveted off your mind and stayed clogged in mine. i felt urge to say, not in that way.

i mean i like- love you.

but i stopped myself. no more dumb descisions today. maybe i'll make more tomorrow.

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pretend jack & gabbie aren't dating in this book
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