april 21
(im gonna fuck with the format sorry)
no ones pov.
they could've had something until he fucked up. it was 3:30am and jisung was lying in his bed thinking about what a shitty 'bestfriend' he was to his forever crush. he truly loved her.
he loved her smile, the way her eyes turned into crescents when she laughed. the way she giggled when jisung said that dumbest shit or did the dumbest shit.
it's been a week since they last talk. "she really meant what she said huh?" jisung talked to the nothingness that is his room.
jisung sat up and leaned against the headboard of his bed. a single tear slipped out of his eye causing him to sniffle and wipe the water droplet off his face harshly.
"i shouldn't be crying when it's all my fault anyway." he laughed to himself thinking at how stupid he was. he thought about how much she actually needed him when hyunjins friends were throwing things at her. throwing harsh comments at her that were nowhere near true statements.
calling her 'slut' 'ugly'. even the word 'ungrateful' came in the mix. saying she has been ungrateful towards jisung because he makes her something. Because according to these ugly human beings jisung makes her visible to the school and whenever he wasn't around she was just a pest.
changmin believed everything they said though. she thought they were right, because they were. she's a nobody. she just bothers jisung and jeongin. maybe they're just fake to her so she doesn't feel bad about herself. maybe they were just lying about liking her even just as a friend all along.
maybe she shouldn't even be alive
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this is trash
