july 4
he walked by coldly.
like i didn't even exist.
hyunjin felt my change of
mood when he passed.
so in reflex he put his arm
around my shoulder like he
always does to comfort me.
i love you hwang hyunjin.
thank you for always
being there when i most
need it.
but right now isn't the time.
i shook his arm off and
ran to the rooftop.
when i got there i was
winded.
i slid down one of the walls
of the entrance to the rooftop.
pulled my knees up to my chest.
and heaved.
cried.
heave
screamed
heave
cursed
heave
pulled at my hair
heave
threw a fit
heave
and calmed down
heave
"you're okay"
heave
"itll be ok"
heave
"just breathe"
heave
did jisung mean what he said over text?
