you and i | a hyunjin fanfic.

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september 16

hyunjins pov

i miss her

i miss her like crazy

all i do is continue looking
at the cute pictures we've taken
together on our little dates.

i'm such a fucking fool

i talked to jeongin about it

and i feel like an asshole

-
*end of school*

"hey jeongin!"

hyunjin yelled jogging towards the younger

"hm?"
jeongin questioned his friend
cocking his head like a lost puppy

"can we talk? do you have
time?"

"yea! is everything okay?

"not really"
he said scratching his head nervously

"oh? tell me what's up"

"do you like changmin?"

jeongin's face turned pale as he
began to panic a little.

"um, i- i don't know why'd you ask"

he chuckled awkwardly

"oh c'mon spill"

"i- i- i uh do?"

"i knew it!"

"i don't know if i do!"

he panicked at hyunjins expression

anger was evident on his face

"you know i love her!"

he growled

"my bad i've been her bestfriend
since we were kids!"

"is it a bad thing to have a crush!"

"no, but back off"

"oh fuck no. she love you i know that.
but there is no way in hell I'm
going to back off or even slightly
ignore her like jisung did.
i'm actually her bestfriend and
i'm not doing that
i love her i don't need her hurt again"

"tsk"

was all hyunjin did as he walked away.

-

"tsk"

i hate the memory

just thinking about it makes me feel like an idiot

i'm ignoring her cause
i feel stupid

i'm selfish for it.

now she's with chan doing dumb
shit, when she could be having ice cream
with me and smiling instead of
feeling like shit, and feeling the need to smoke
and drink because of how numb she feels.

"idiot, idiot, IDIOT"

i continued hitting my head thinking it'll help.

i want her in my arms again damnit.

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SHOULD THIS HAVE A HAPPY OR SAD ENDING

someone questioned the ending
now idk what to do LMAO

i missed the babies birthdays so happy belated birthday to jisung and felix whom i love with my entire heart. i don't think i've brought felix in the story .-.

but i love the two talented boys and extreme amount uwu

thank you for 25k reads!!

thank you for continuing to read the story i love you all!! sorry for late updates once again!!