truth or dare,urie? (ryden)

intermission

*double upload because why not,i love this book so much💘 im so sorry if this chapter is a little short,but it does give some good juicy stuff hehe. the next chapter will be at least 900 words,i promise :) it's almost 9:00 so goodnight everyone i love you all. i will update tomorrow,enjoy.

after ryan's little mini talent show,the two boys decided they should go to sleep. they were already changed,so they just got up from their criss crossed positions and got under the covers and into the soft cloud that was brendon's bed.

"thank you for today brendon,i had the best time ever." ryan whispered,starting to get a little tired

"me too ry,hopefully tomorrow is amazing as well."

"yeah.." ryan said very quietly,almost like a mumble. "goodnight bre..." ryan was cut short since he had fallen asleep.

brendon smiled as he looked at ryan,sleeping soundly and looking more peaceful than ever. it's like there was no worry on him,all the stress had drenched up.

brendon started to take in all of ryan's physical features. how strong his jawline was,how long his eyelashes really were,the way his body lightly rose up and down as he took in small bits of air,but enough to keep him alive.

ryan was just so calm,brendon couldn't contain himself and kissed ryan on the cheek. "goodnight ryan." ryan smiles in his sleep,and that gave time for brendon to take in ryan's overall features. the way he covered his mouth when he laughed,that little squeak he did and the color his cheeks became whenever brendon complimented him,how his voice sounded so soft and delicate when he sang,and the way he strummed that guitar. the sound was so lovely,but so was the sight. ryan got all focused and squinted his eyes while sticking his tongue out when trying to concentrate.

but why did brendon notice all this? oh god,here comes the questioning. brendons confusion was too much for him,he just wanted to figure this big love mess out. love? this wasn't love. this was a dare.

or was it now? brendon decided to do the logical thing and actually think everything thoroughly.

yes,he did find ryan attractive. but he found lots of guys attractive,so that didn't really mean much. he loved the little things ryan did,it made him melt internally. he also loved spending time with ryan,more than his friends at least. he never felt truly happy or like he was having fun with his friends. but with ryan,it's like his true self would just jump out.

all these questions related to how brendon was truly feeling flooded his mind. would he mind being in a real relationship with ryan? now that he thought of it,no. would he consider ryan someone close to him? yes. did he trust ryan? yes. does ryan make brendon feel good? yes. he never upsets him and he always feels at ease with ryan's presence. brendon always found himself consistently pondering about ryan as well. it's like he had entered his mind,but ryan never left. does brendon dislike anything about ryan? he only dislikes the fact that he has a low self esteem and he has a bad image pictured and printed inside his brain. which brendon found to be untrue,seeing ryan as perfect. it didn't exist,but in one word,that's how brendon would describe him.

now,it was all up for brendon to decide his true feelings. maybe this was just temporary,or maybe brendon was lying to himself.

                                    (-)

brendon has stayed up for approximately three hours,laying there next to ryan,thinking. about ryan. he wanted to check the time to see how many hours of sleep he would get since that was a good but also bad habit of his.

throughout the night,ryan somehow ended very close to brendon,but also in his arms. brendon was holding ryan very protectively but also gently,not wanting to hurt him. but hey,brendon wasn't complaining.

brendon moved his head a little to the right just enough so he could see the clock. 3:45 am. that leaves about six hours of sleep,knowing he woke up around eight-nine-ish.

brendon moved his posture to face ryan,studying his features once again. it was a fun thing for brendon to do. when brendon was done,he moved his head so he was staring up at his white colored ceiling,ryan still in his arms.

he pondered for what seemed like forever,until his heart settled on a final answer to everything. brendon didn't mean to think out loud,but it was in a whisper tone so he didn't even realize he said his decision out loud.

"i am infatuated with ryan ross."

!!!!!!!!-sammy