underappreciated me (patrick stump fanfic)

One Week Left

Zara's p.o.v

"Zara, you didn't say anything what i thought you said, did you?" My grandfather asks, after Patrick left i ran up to my room that i have in my grandfathers house and cried, luckily Max isn't here he'd do nothing but make fun of me, i cant let him see me cry.

but i must answer my grandfather he looks so stern and so annoyed at me. I know he knows what its like.

i nodded my head slowly and stuffed my head into my pillow wishing that it would swallow me up. I wish that Patrick could never read my mind, i wish he didn't turn up at that time. I wish i had never met him.

The more i thought of this the more the tears came pouring down.

i felt a dip in the side of the bed and my grandfathers well known sigh,"Zara, sweetie. I know you can't control your feelings and i know he's gone storming off like a teenage girl, but listen to me, Zara you cannot form feeling for an Angel, love he's going to be gone next week."

i shook my head at him,"Just leave me alone for abit,ill get over it." i sighed. I no longer felt the dip in the bed but more of a pat on the head.    

"Alright sweetheart, I'll check in on you in a while." he said softly exiting the room.   

why did he come by in the first place? I was perfectly fine living my life then he comes along with his handsome face and what not and takes over. My head hurts from all the hurtful thinking.     

"Yeah i bet it does." Came a voice from the bedroom door. I sat up and looked straight at the person, Patrick obviously standing by the door now looking a little pissed off.

There was some awkward silence for the next 30 seconds between us. Me looking around the room and Patrick glaring at me, " Why didn't you tell me?" he asked, standing in the door abit and closing the door behind him.     

i sighed a little not wanting to answer,"Because you know why, Your an Angel." i spoke and choked half way through the sentence, it soon hit me...

he's dead

Patrick looked at me and smiled a little,"Took you long enough." he spoke bitterly,"How can you even like me? I'm dead Zara. I'm dead!"    

"i know your dead! But what can i do? I cant just automatically tell my mind to stop liking you, its impossible. Your the only person that appreciated me abit more than the rest, but that was  all thrown back in my face when sat with Sasha, the girl who looked down on me all the time, the head girl the goodlooking one, smart one the tall one..And me? Well im the short weird one with a crush on a dead guy." i cried, i buried my head into my pillow,"i wish you never came to me. I wish you'd just leave me alone."   

"Zara, Look don't get me wrong. Zara Blantley you are the most beautiful girl I've ever seen, id do anything to be with you, to be next to you. Zara i would kill anyone who would try and hurt you in the slightest but Zara i can't be with you.. I'm dead and im here to guard you and to look after you for a while. I'm not here for my love life or for yours." he said, i couldn't see him but i can hear the devistation in his voice, he sniffled abit,"Zara, im not going to be here forever, I'm not going to be there every step of the way, I wouldn't be able to support you, Give you kids.. And that's devistating for me because i wish i could spend my life with you." 

he sniffled a bit more, i shuffled in the bed abit. He likes me too, this is a pain. The man you can have a chance with but you cant because he's not real.. Well he is but that was along time ago.

".... Why did you wait for me all those years?" i asked through tears, i sniffled and wiped my eyes with my sleeve.

"I guess because...i-i just couldn't let go." he cried, i looked up at him a bit to see him wiping his eyes with his sleeves also,i hate it. I hate making him upset.  

i sat upright so i was facing him,"I find it hard to let you go because i was there your whole life and the reason im back again is to help you, but i done a lousy job at that. I relived a few memories alot of them infact, Happy ones, ones I've had with you." he said turning to me and looking me straight in the eye, he took my hands in his and held him up to his chest close to his heart. "you are very special to me Zara, I want you to know that. When im gone i want you to know im always thinking of you, dreaming of you, running over memories of you. I want you to know that your always in my heart." he said through choked tears, he brought my hands up to his face and kissed them lightly, which made my heart sink into my stomach and my tears run free, ill always be in his heart..in his mind.

"don't leave yet," i whispered silently whilst he still held my hands in his, he smiled at me through his tears. I always remembered my mom saying everytime an angel crys it rains outside, well its pissing outside at the moment.  

he chuckled a little,"Your not getting rid of me that quick Zarz, I've one week left." he looked back up at me,tears no longer running,"then at the end of that week i will fulfill the wish you want and i-ill be o-ff..." he continued choking out the last parts.

"Look lets make the most of the week ahead of us alright? Just we can just chill." i suggested, i know he wont want to make it awkward for us two, we're better off being friends so its less painful and weird when he leaves.

he sniffles a little and nods his head,"yeah, yeah i like that idea and this time i promise you and i mean it,ill be here for you." he said sincerely leaning in for a hug which i gladly accepted and hugged the life out of him.

"just remember where you'll always be." he whispered into my hair while hugging me.   

"in your heart," i replied cuddling him."Patrick, you'll always be in mine also, every second of the day."

**Well that was shocking wasn't it? I cried a little writing this thought it was crafty haha not really, Anyways 1k already wow guys and there is alot more to come also there will also be a sequel because it would be about Zara's later life and stuff. Anyways thank you for your beautiful graceful support ayeee. Anyways if there is anything you like me to add say it and ill do it ANYTHING I DO, I DO IT FOR YOUUUUU   

yeah some singing action up in here holler. My fave love song ever guys. So you guys can comment what you think so far and also im updating quite alot because I've got timmeeee on our hands we've got, got nothing but time on our hands got nothing but got nothing bu-- OKAY STOP sorry. Credit to Paramore for making me sing. Yeah so I've alot of time on my hands except for tomorrow because im socialising (weird i know,) busy girl i am...not. pointless ending here but yeah im weird,

So... VOTE COMMENT READ    

well its nice to meet you sir i guess ill go i best be on my way out. Thank you Paramore for a beautiful ending plus i got the Tayley feels all day because of that beautiful photo from monumentour *cries* Taylor York is my spirit animal btw.  

Love you all my beautiful little lovies, so now bowling for soup will play my tune going out ... There she goes again with fishnets on and dreadlocks in her hair.

yeah i don't have dreadlocks     

Becka:)xx**