underappreciated me (patrick stump fanfic)

demon in my safest haven

(Zara's p.o.v)

"Alright, you all set?" Patrick asks tying his shoelace and sitting and the end of the stairs, i smile brightly at him and nod.

"Good, then we are set to go Madam." he smiled opening the door for me, I've got everything i need I'm sure, I'm a little nervous though. What if this doesn't work out?

i stopped Patrick when we got to the end of my garden and stood there. Patrick looked back in confusion "Well aren't you coming?" he asked smiling at me.

i nodded and swallowed a lump in my throat, "Its ju-just if it doesn't work, i just wan-- memory i want to make a memory."

Patrick looked around nervously,"Zara we cant, your neighbours are watching." he stated looking around the neighbourhood. I chuckle lightly and hit his shoulder lightly.

"No doofus, i just want to kiss you." i smiled reaching up for a passionate kiss which he gladly accepted, this lasted for atleast thirty seconds before Patrick announced we should leave before it starts getting dark.

i took Joes car since he left the keys in our house for emergency's only, we hoped into Joes range rover, me in the drivers seat Patrick in the passenger seat. "Shit!" i said quickly, Patrick shot a glance at me questionly,"I don't know how to drive." i laughed, me and Patrick soon switched sides so that he was driving.

"I'm still a little anxious 'Trick," i blurted. Patrick turned his head in my direction giving me a reassuring smile placing a hand on my hand.

"Listen to me Zara Blantley," he said. I looked at him with an amusing smirk. "Do you think out of all the years i know you that i'd bring you somewhere highly unsafe?" he asked. I sat there in my seat thing, would he?

"No," i answered searching his eyes for any hestitation just incase he's afraid to tell me something, nothing there but somethings off i know it.

"ill keep you safe, trust me i wont let anybody hurt you Zara. " he said sincerely through a gaze, but it wasn't a loving gaze it was more a 'am i sure i should say this?' gaze, Maybe I'm a little too anxious that I'm noticing all this and im hallucinating? Maybe, well i hope i am.

i shot him a small smile making sure that i don't look like I'm shitting bricks beside him.

we set off on the journey a few miles west, he said something like where his body is stored is somewhere near the desert (i don't know.if the deserts west idk,) i only listened in parts of his conversation since my brain took control and came up with worst scenario's.

"....So then once im awake we will be together." Patrick said cutting out of my brain, to pretend i was listening i smiled and nodded.making it look like i was so concentrated on it that i didn't find a need to speak.

"Okay about 2 more hours and we're out, you okay with that? We can stop and eat if you want?" Patrick asked. "wait actually eat while you drive since we've got to get there before evening." i nodded to his description of plans. "Like why did we leave at like four thirty?" he laughed to himself. Its scaring me i feel no emotion, im too scared to believe i have emotions.

"So has your mom got in contact?" Patrick asked keeping his eyes on the road.

"Uh ye-yeah, sh-she rang before-e we left." i stuttered out horrification, since my brain has the worst scenarios that are building up and feeling like they are real. Patrick looked strangely at me.

"Zara if your not ready ill turn the car around and we can go ho-" i cut Patrick off by putting my hand over his mouth leaving him mumbling under my hand.

"No," i said taking my hand off his mouth and wiping his saliva on his jeans,"I am ready, just a little nervous. That's all."

"Alright then, So what did your mom say on the phone?" Patrick asked changing the topic back to the previous one so it doesn't cause me having a panic attack.