Different- Jack Ginisky fanfic

Chapter 30

Once I had gotten some breakfast I saw there was people in the hall, I didn't want to risk seeing Jack but I knew he wasn't there, it sounds weird but none of them moved like him or had the same silohette, I could recognise him from a mile away and he wasn't there so I walked in.

Carter, Hayes and Matt were talking sitting on stage, Hayes saw me walking towards them and gave me a a big cute smile, such a sweetie.

Me: Hiya guys

Carter: Morning Lo, you okay now?

Me: Uh yeah what do you mean (Had Jack told them? Omg I don't want to talk about it)

Carter: You were ill, Jack said you needed to rest

Me: Oh yeah yeah I'm better now it was just a short term thing

Hayes: Thats good, I think Jack still has a bug or something

Me: Oh really?

Matt: Yeah he was real quiet last night and left all of a sudden, i think he went to throw up, he never came back.

Me: Oh shame

I walked away slightly as I wasn't interested if they were going to be talking about Jack, instead I went to the back of the stage, got up onto it and looked at Mahogany's laptop, she had such a good set planned. I saw opposite of adults on there and had to play it, it's my jam.

Chiddy bang played through the speakers and we all began to dance, we were all messing around, copying eachothers moves and dancing with eachother and Mahogany walked in smiling.

Mahogany: Great song isn't it.. damn Lola you got some moves haha.

Me: Haha thanks

Mahogany: Oh man you gotta do that with the guys in stage tomorrow.

Me: Wait what?

Mahogany: Well we were saying last night if you were feeling better you should be a bigger part of the show, the fans don't see you as a photographer anymore, you get asked for pictures and hugs more everyday, you should be more involoved not just pushed to the side

Matt: Yeah it's true it would be great you dancing with us, you got such a good vibe.

Me: Honestly I'm more than happy to just take photos, it's what I do best I-

Hayes: -No excuse Lola we want you to be up here with us, do it for me (puppy dog eyes)

Me: Hayes please.. seriously guys you are the show and i'm the photographer, I prefer to be behind the lens.

Carter: Lola, don't argue, we want you to be a part of the show you are already part of the family.

They finally convinced me but for the mean time I kept to photography, Jack, Jack and Sammy had made their way into the hall and I was well off stage, directly infront infact, I was sat criss crossed on the floor with my camera around my neck, I did the usual, with a few pictures of Sam smirking at me when i took pictures, he wasn't used to it I guess.

The moment I had been dreading came around, Jack and Jack's performance, not only did I have to take some direct pictures of Jack G which meant concentrating on him and his perfect stupid face, but I also had to listen to his voice which only reminded me of the first time I heard him sing live and I was hooked. Jack J had finished his rap and I braced myself, Jack G began to sing but it was different, it was so soulful and deep, like his usual voice with an extra demension, was it because he was sad, or ill?

I wasn't the only one who noticed it, I saw the others look in awe and at eachother nodding.

I had to hold back tears once again, his voice was so beautiful, i didn't know if it was because I hadn't heard it in so long but I was so in love with his talent, shit.

Once they finished, everyone thought it was best to take a break, I quickly walked outside, I needed fresh air, I began inhaling and exhaling deeply and slowly, what was wrong with me, this distance thing wasn't working out. I felt like air wasn't getting to me, Jack's singing and overall seeing him affected me so much I couldn't breathe.

I heard the outside door fly open and Jack G came out panting, I looked at him, with confusion and sadness. I didn't want to talk to him at all, but I couldn't help it, I wanted to make up, I can't carry on like this.

Jack G: I'm, I'm sorry I needed fresh air, I'll give you space.

Me: It's okay

Jack G: What?

Me: You can stay if you want

Jack G: Of course I want to stay but I thought you didn't, you want space?

Me: Turns out that isn't working out too well for me

Jack G: What changed?

Me: Well being away from you was fine, the hard part is seeing you after a while and it hits me harder than ever. and it's not like I can't ever see you again can I?

Jack G: No that would never happen, even if you hated me forever I wouldn't be able to not see you.

Me: Yeah even if I hated you forever, I wouldn't be able to not see you and that says enough for me

Jack G: So what are you saying

Me: I'll put it past me, I was thinking about your explanation and I know you've never meant to hurt me.

Jack G: And I never will Lola I promise, I wont ever fuck up again, I'm so sorry.

Me: It's okay Jack, you've said sorry enough times, I.. I forgive you.

Jack G: Are you being serious, you aren't playing?

Me: Yeah I'm being serious, you're still my friend and important to me at the end of the day.

Jack came close to me and squeezed me to him, his grip was tight but I didn't mind this time, it was nice, even tho he hugged me last night I felt like it had been ages since we were properly close.

We went inside and finished rehersals.

After we ate dinner and walked of of the restuarant, Jack G pulled me to the side.

Jack G: Hey

Me: Hey, is something up or?

Jack G: I was wondering if you wanted to take a little trip with me tonight

Me: A trip? Where?

Jack G: It's a surprise, just meet me outside the hotel lobby at 7:30. Bring your board

Me: Um okay