Fragile Heart

Chapter Eleven

Nagising ako sa ingay ng alarm ko. I reach out for my phone at tinignan ang oras. Its already pass eight in the morning. I got up from my bed and felt a headache. My eyes are the puffiest it has been. The mirror couldn't tell a lie on how numb my eyes are. The natural black lines under my eyes were no longer natural. I was a mess I admit.

After checking myself in the mirror I went straight to the bathroom. Ang bigat bigat ng katawan ko. I was dragging myself to move because staying in bed will do no good for me. Hindi ko alam kung ilang oras lang ba ako natulog. My headache says it was less than what I needed. I took my bath and did my other routine. After kong maligo pumunta ako sa walk in closet ko. Opening the door gave me an instant frown.

The scene of my closet gave me a heavy heart. Puro t-shirt, jeans, sweat pants ang mga damit dito. Tagalang pang lalake lahat. It gave me a reality check that I really need to change the way I dress. It took me sometime to search my closet for something girly. A pink cropped top, denim short shorts with grey cardigan and sneakers was the best pair I saw and those were gifts from my mom.

These are clothes that I don't usually wear but will try wearing for a change. Kailangan ko na talaga mag shopping for new clothes. Kailangan ko na itapon ang boyish ko mga damit. New clothes new me. Something I should have done long time ago.

I am a big disappointment to my mom. May-ari ng isang fashion company but has a daughter who lacks fashion. Kaya hindi ako dinadala sa mga parties. Nakakahiya.

Tinignan ko sarili ko sa salamin. It looks good on me. Bakit kasi hindi ganito ang pananamit ko dati. It wasnt comfortable as I wanted like my usual sweat pants and t-shirt but its worth the try. I sat down infront of my dresser and opened my drawer. These are make ups Mom bought but I never use. Maybe its time for a change.

I tried to conceal my eye bugs. Konting powder, liptint and blush. I use my necklace and I was ready to go. After ko mag bihis ay bumaba na ako at nag paalam kay kuya na aalis ako.

"Finally mukang buhay kana. Your sure your okay?" tanong ni kuya saakin. I know he has been worried. Alam kong rinig na rinig niya ang lakas ng iyak ko kagabi dahil makatabi nag kwarto namin. Kuya and I usually fight but he knows when to be a brother.

"Of course kuya, nothing can stop me." Lumapit si kuya saakin at niyakap ako. Hinahaplos ng yakap ni kuya ang puso ko. He rarely do this and little things like this has a great impact in me.

"Be careful okay? Text me when you need anything. I'm one text away." Hinalikan niya ako sa noo at humiwalay sa pagkayakap saakin. I saluted him before turning around at lumakad papuntang garage. He's letting me barrow his car for today dahil mag momotor lang daw siya ngayon. Pumasok ako sa kotse niya habang dahan dahan ako binabantayan ni kuya na parang isang fragile na bagay. Inandar ko ang kotse at inatras ito. Bukas na ang gate kaya dahan dahan ko ito inatras. Tumingin ako kay kuya. Ngumiti ako sakanya at kumaway bago pinatakbo paalis ang kotse.