Fragile Heart

Prologue

"Hey," 

I was on my way inside my house when a familiar voice called me. His voice gave me shivers as how familiar it was. I can't believe that it had been years a lot has happened and still he has the same effect on me. I keep battling my inter thought if I should turn around of not. I hesitated to look his way but something told me to do so. I needed to do so.

I promised myself the day I'll see him again, is the day that I'll need to face him for running is not an option anymore. It has been my only option for years but not now I decided that it would no longer be an option. Not today.

I took a deep breath before turning around. He was standing there. The man I loved, standing in front of me 10 meters away from me only my gate in between us. He was standing beside his old favorite car which he got as a gift back when we were in high school, looking great as usual.

He still got his usual style. Branded shirts match with black pants and Sperry shoes. His old car still looking new because of the way his taking care of it. The only difference was he looks more older than before. More matured, more handsome, more out of my league. He removes his Rayban glasses revealing his dark brown eyes I used to stare at everyday.

Flashing a big bright smile like nothing happened. Maybe nothing really happened, maybe I was overthinking. Maybe Its just me who's affected not him. It has been years why would I still think I have the same effect on him?

That moment I realize that everything was okay. That there were no pain, no anger, no holding back. Everything was fine as I thought I would be and wished it would be. My heart finally holding on not crashing into bits of piece like how it use to every time I see him.

"Hey, what are you doing here?" I ask him stopping the staring contest between us two. I walked towards him and opened my gate so I can get closer. His smile became wider as I approach him which makes me happy that finally, I can see sincerity. He wasn't faking, I can feel the smile he's giving is sincere and genuine

"How are you doing Coleen?"

"It's good to see you again Sac. It has been what? Three years? You look good! I hope you're healthy." 

All those words came smoothly out of my mouth. There were no more stuttering. My smile widen as I said it.

"I went to your office yesterday and you're not there." he said casually like nothing happen in the past. Like we were all good when I know we're not.

"And why did you go there? Teka, paano mo nalaman na dito ako nakatira? Who told you?" I'm a bit confused. Why would he go to my office? And how did he know that I live here.

"Researched? I'm just here to see my best friend before I leave." He answered. He stood properly and walks a little bit forward to where I was standing. I can completely see his face. As usual, I had to look a bit higher because of his height.

"Actually I came here to give you this personally." He handed me a small envelope. It was dirty white in color and has this shine on it. But before accepting it, I look at him once again. My face could say that I'm confuse because I am really confuse. He just smiled at me wider. Maybe this envelope contains something important to him. My heart was hesitating to accept it because I had a feeling of what it was inside. But I want to, I need to.

I accepted the envelope and slowly read the words printed on it. I involuntarily smirk and slowly opened it. I read everything inside of it, my heart is beating so fast that I don't know whether hurting or just excited.

'You're invited to Dalas-Quintos Wedding'

I rush to hug him tight. Happiness and pain mixed my emotions. My tears wanted to fall but I trained myself in these past few years to hold the pain. There is still a little pain but what can my pain do if I see my best friend happy, my first love happy.

"Congratulations Sac! Finally! It took you years before you decided to settle down. I'm glad that you're able to make the decision!" I said while still hugging him. For three years I was trying to prove to myself that I didn't deserve him that someone else does. And finally this day came to prove me so, that I Coleen Sanchez doesn't deserve a man like Isaac Quintos.

Three years with no communication after our high school-college one sided romance and engagement fuss. And now we're both 27 and life is better for us two.

My heart is sinking traydor na puso. Akala ko ba okay kana? Bakit bigla bigla ka nagpaparamdam ng kirot. You need to be happy try to be happy. Wala kana magawa Coleen. His happy, be happy. This is all you asked for years. finally that moment came.

Umalis na ako sa pagkayap sakanya at ganun din siya. "Please be there Coleen. I need you to be there. It won't be special without you." I can see how excited he is talking all about it.

"Of course, I won't miss my best friend's wedding." Bestfriend, talaga bang bestfriend parin ang turing namin sa isa't isa kabila ng lahat na nangyari? Everything after that was awkward. I invited him in pero umayaw na siya. He said that he's on his way to the airport and just made time to bring me the invitations. As I saw his car drove away, my heart reach the bottom of my path way and splattered into pieces.

There it was, I finally let go of my first love, my only love, the love of my life. Tinignan ko muli ang envelop na binigay niya saakin and tears slowly fell.

"Looks like I can't go crying like this again." I took a deep breath and walk straight inside my house not looking back, because there isn't anything to look back to anymore.

There goes my happy ending, broken like my fragile heart.