The fear in me

Epilogue

Nay

"Jason, come on. They're all waiting for us!" I order my dress and then look fascinated at the boy who has caught my heart. He looks breathtaking in his dark blue dinner jacket.

Excited, I look at him and my face lights up.

"Hey, Nay ... you look marvellous!" he breathes, embracing me.

"You look superb too ..." I whisper hoarsely.

"My goodness, can't you two keep your hands off each other for two minutes!" an irritated voice calls out.

"Good evening, Tim!" Jason laughs, turning me around on his own axis.

"You're looking great. A stunning suit, Tim." I grin at him and see him looking with self-love down at himself.

"Yeah, I really look tremendous. The lassies will fall at my feet," he says proudly.

"I'm convinced of that!" I answer with a grin.

It's our graduation dance. Everyone will be there today. My parents, Jason's parents, and grandparents ... really everyone.

It was remarkable how easily the "angels" could manipulate all around them, as though it was really nothing unusual that Jason's parents were suddenly back in his life. Nobody any longer has a clue that Jason grew up with the Sommers and that he had a problem with touching. The Sommers are now only good friends of the Rockefellers and almost belong to the family.

Nevertheless, they're again living in North-Rhine-Westphalia. Jason's parents have taken up a house close to ours. But still, nobody knows about the relocation, everyone thinks that Jason has always lived with his family. Even his parents and grandparents firmly believe that, as though nothing at all had happened. Yes, Jason has two little sisters. Jonathan left his wife with the man whom he had at that time linked to them. Since the couple had still more children he did not want to separate them, even though he says that he'll love Jason's mother forever. But he's had himself and Sam registered as part of the family and is now the brother of his former wife, which is very confusing. But that is the best way of explaining the contact. So Sam has become an uncle although he's really the brother ... which makes me even more quite confused.

Tim's memories were similarly wiped out because it quickly became clear that he could not deal with his love for me. Shortly after our return home, he began to drown his sorrows in alcohol, and when he was properly drunk he became so extremely jealous that the HA's were afraid he'd babble about their secret. So the decision was made to change his ability to recall without further ado and to delete his memories.

Now he's at last what I always wished for myself. A good friend!

Apart from that, lots of things have happened. One night, after I had beamed myself full of yearning to Jason's room, it became clear to Jonathan that on the day of Rafael's death Jason and I had shared more than our souls. A DNA test showed that I'm no longer human, but that I also have the HA profile. So by mistake, Jason has made me too into a taker and I can't say I'm unhappy about that.

We are on a par and that has once again proved to me that we are made for each other. Dealing with the acquired gift is still very strange for me, but I try to make the best of it. I'm the first of a completely new breed and the HA's are curious as to how that will work out.

"Ready?" Jason asks, cutting into my thoughts, and he smiles at me.

I sigh because I still can't believe I've been so lucky. Jason is the most attentive and tenderest man in the whole wide world.

Even though I don't really have a lot of experience in the field of relationships I firmly believe there is no better lover than Jason. I hope he sees that just the same way from his end. I frown and sigh again. "You're my life and the only one that I want. You and I, that's forever!" Jason whispers into my ear and I have to laugh because he doesn't know how much I sometimes need his agreement. Even though I now have the HA profile, none of the angels can read my thoughts, not even Jason. And yet he's always saying the right thing at the right moment, as though he knew my most intimate fears, worries, and wishes.

I say: he's perfect! And he's mine! Forever and ever!