Down To You[Wattys2017]

Chapter 41

Mr. Helson, after seeing Anna rush out of his son's room and huddled in the corner makes him shake his head, he knew he need to talk to his son so he entered, he doesn't care if Logan wants to see him or not. And by the way Logan just continued to stare at the ceiling says so too.

"Son, is she it?" he had to ask because to bring out that much of a reaction out of Logan at his lows, even if it is anger is amazing. Anger Logan makes him feel more relief than the one who just look at everything and everyone with total disinterest, all expression made as if he is a robot.

Logan didn't answer but Mr. Helson knows exactly how to push Logan's button because in the end, all Helsons got one thing in common, they are damn territorial, he smirked, "I remember the pictures you sent of you and your football team. She is really pretty so I don't think those guys would pass a chance to ask her out so perhaps that captain of yours claimed her? Or is she passed around"

Logan tenses up before he was filled with rage, he turned his head to glare at his father "She's mine" he snaps.

"You don't treat her like one. Maybe she belongs to Lucas" he said out random name but Logan doesn't like it one bit.

"No. She is mine" he narrowed his eyes dangerously.

"You fucking pushed her away like a pussy. Are you a pussy? "

"I am not" I growl

"Then don't act like one. I get that you don't want her to see you like this but you may need her more than you realise"

"She is the one who fucking push me away and I can't even really blame her because look at me, I don't know how to pull myself up. I need a fucking medicine to be normal"

"Are you saying you are embarrassed to be you? To be me and your mom's son?"

"I did not say that"

"You did because the only son I got is a relentless one. Who is never afraid to take risk and conquers. You are that son"

My jaws clenched and he leaned down,

"We are Helsons. We want something? We fight for it and achieve it. Remember that. She pushed you away you? That's cute and too fucking bad for her because once we decide someone is it, they don't escape. Show her that. Don't let your fucked up head ruin you and let you be this pussy. You get me son?"

Mr. Helson didn't wait for his response, he got out the room to give Logan at lest little time to think.

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Anna's POV

I am in a delima. I know I got I deserve. I hurted Logan and I paid the price. I deserve everything he threw at me. I know that he is also saying those things to push me away but it doesn't make it hurt less.

I remember all those times I freaked out, act like a crazy bitch but he always sticks by me, never giving up on me. Now it is my turn. I won't give up on him. I will fight for us. I am never the best at anything, always the jack, but fighting is what I do. I climb the soccer ladder by dedication and never giving up, in the same way. I will fight for us. I will make him see how sorry I am.

He said that I either I want him or I don't . I am ready to tell him that I want him. I am taking him.

"Ms Hart"  A voice rumbles and I look up to see Mr Helson talking to me.

I stood up quickly, "Mr. Helson, you can call me Anna"

He nods. "I assume you don't know about Logan's mental health"

I just blinked. Mental health?

What the hell. I just shook my head No.

He scowls, "Figures. He is ashamed of it and never tell anyone. He is prone to depression and had been diagnosed too. It is unpredictable when his low is coming and lots of things can trigger too. He is at his lows now so I can tell he is pushing you away already. I am telling you this because this cycle will probably never end" he shrug casually, "So if you can't handle it, you better leave now. If you stay, you better be damn sure you are ready for his moody ass"

I am staring wide eyes at his father. I never know this side of Logan. Is this why he is always so secretive?? Trying to hide parts of him he is always ashamed of?

I don't know much about depressions or someone who is prone to depression so I don't understand much but what I do know is that he is using his defense mechanism to push me away.

Stupid Lo.

Doesn't he know that I want every part of him?

I accept him even in his low state. I will be his ups, to balance him. I am not sure what I am getting into but I am ready to face consequences.

"Will you see him again? " Mr Helson ask. Carefully studying me.  And I nod.

"I will go in alone if you don't mind"

I slowly approach the door and open.

Logan wasn't facing me so he doesn't know it is me hence he is quiet.

"Logan"

He stiffened immediately, "Why are you still here?" he spat.

"I... I know about your state"

His whole body stiffen, it was silent between us for a moment before he spoke again, "Disappointed?" his voice was bitter.

"NO! No, I don't care! And I think it's time for you to listen Logan Helson, I came here to tell you that I want you, I am ready get all in. Talk to me properly if you are mad at me for being damn selfish, always thinking for my security only, never of yours, just expecting to stay right where I keep you, pushing and hurting you in process
I am so sorry okay. I was stupid. I am so damn into you"

I held my breath, trying to stop my damn stupid tears from blocking my vision, I am ready to bare myself to him, " I always knew deep down how damn capable you are of breaking my heart. You know that my heart has been broken plenty of times before yet I always get back up but this time, I swear if you break me, I won't be able to get up anymore, I knew that okay. But...that's also not fair for you. So, I am willing to take risk. Don't let your defense mechanism do the talking. Please"

He didn't say anything so I took a step towards him.

"Stop" he says harshly and I did. He sit up and look at me, still with those glaring eyes.

"If you take one more fucking step, One fucking more, You are in. No more those pushing away shit. I won't be gentle and give you fucking space like I used to. I won't be nice anymore baby. And I can't promise you sunshine and shit like you want because this is me, this fuck up asshole is part of me. You are taking him too"

I nod, unable to hold back my tears tears, "Yes, yes" I choke out and took one more step and his eyes finally soften, making me so light all of a sudden, so relieved. He opened his arms, "Come here" And I run to him.

When he engulfed me in a hug, I buried my face at the crook of his neck, "No more hiding"

He nods.

"I need you to tell me everything"

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