Help Me

Epilogue

Jace's Pov 

Dear Jace, 

Do you have any idea how much I love you? You probably don't. I only told you once. But, I love you. I love you. I love you. I'm telling you now because I won't ever get to tell you again. By the time you read this I'll already be gone. Dead is the better word. Yep, I did it. I killed myself. But let me tell you why. 

You remember Max right? Of course you do. Well anyway, I wanted to break up with Max. I hated the guy. He told me that I couldn't break up with him and I wasn't allowed to talk to you. That pissed me off. He said I wasn't allowed to see you either. That made me even more upset. I threatened to tell the police about his abuse. But that didn't sit right with him. He told me that if I told the police, he would kill you. 

I didn't want that to happen. I wanted nothing of the sort. I wanted me and you to get married and have kids. Well adopt. But that won't ever happen now will it? 

I was tired of hurting you. I was tired of being hurt. I knew me being with Max hurt you. And being with Max hurt me. Especially since we both knew that we loved each other. I didn't know what to do. It was either tell the police and have you die or kill myself. 

Jace you have so much potential. Your so smart and intelligent. Go to college. Find someone else. Love him as much as I love you. 

Just don't ever forget about me. Always remember us. All the fun times we had. Remember our best friend days. The trip to Cedar Point. The time we went to get pizza. And always remember the hideout. Never forget the hideout. The hideout contains all the answers you're looking for. 

 I love you, Nerd. 

Love, 

Cash 

I kept reading the note over and over again. I couldn't stop. 

He killed himself? I hate him for doing this to me. Where did he do it? How did he do it? 

I can't even begin to think about what was going through his head. He just left me here. He took my virginity. We made love. Then he left me here. All alone. I have no one. 

Where could he be? I reread the last paragraph of the note. 

The hideout. The hideout contains all the answers you're looking for.

Is he there? 

I put on my jacket and shoes and walked towards the hideout. 

He has to be there. Where else could he go? 

* * * 

Oh my GOD?! 

I see it. I see blood. I see all the blood splattered all over the rocks. I'm scared. Too scared to continue. Too scared to go see the body. I don't want to see it. But I have to. 

I kept on walking. 

I put my hand over my mouth. I saw his body. I tear rolled down my cheeks. 

Ryan. My Ryan. Dead. I saw the gun. It's laying on the ground right next to his hand. 

I called the police. 

"911 what's your emergency?" 

"I'm reporting a double suicide." 

"Double? Where is your location?"

"The tunnel at the end of the woods."

I hung up the phone and picked up the gun.

I put the gun to my heart and pulled the trigger.

I love you too, Ryan. 

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*SIGH* It's over. -_- I never expected it to end so quickly. I'm so heartbroken. Well, I'm about to start a new story soon. Read that one?