Surprise (English) ft One Direction & 5SOS

Chapter 9

Liam:

When Rose and I arrive downstairs, the boys look expectant at us.

"Liam wants to tell something to you guys", Rose says when I stay silent and am too afraid to say something, what she sees.

I swallow and take a deep breath. 'I.. I..', I stay silent again and get a lump in my throat.

"You can do it Liam, I believe in you", Rose whispers to me. I get a little bit more confidence, but enough to tell them. I have to tell them someday anyway and now I have Rose to comfort me. I won't get a better opportunity than this.

'I.. I can sometimes read minds', I say as quick as possible. Maybe too quick or not loud enough, but I did say it.

"You can wat?", Louis asks. Didn't he hear me well, is he shocked or even angry? I get a lump in my throat again and I feel tears pricking in my eyes.

"You can wait upstairs if you want? I'll explain it to them", Rose says with a sweet voice when she notices it. I nod gratefully at her and walk upstairs.

On my way upstairs I feel tears streaming down my cheeks. I'm an emotional wreck! I'm useless! Nobody's ever gonna trust me again!

I walk to the bathroom and see a razor from the father or brother of Rose. Should I do it? I've never done it before and I've always told the fans who cut themselves that it's not the answer and that they should stop doing it, but this is different.

Would it hurt? I look at my wrist. Luckily I wear bracelets to cover the cuts if I do it and nobody would see it.

Louis:

Alright, now Rose has everything calmly explained again, it becomes much clearer to me. I feel bad for Liam. He never dared to say it, afraid that we wouldn't trust him anymore.  What would it be hard to keep it a secret. 

 I feel that I really need the toilet. Could I ask it now? I don't want to interrupt Rose.

"Lou, sit silent man. I'm getting nervous watching you", Harry says, who sits next to me.

'I really need the toilet, but I don't want to interrupt Rose', I say softly.

"Just ask her, it won't matter to her if someone asks for the toilet. I'm sure".

'Thanks Hazza'.

'Rose?'.

"Yes Louis?", she immediately reacts and stops her story. I guess it wasn't that bad to interrupt her.

'Sorry that I've to interrupt you, but I really need to go to the toilet. Is it okay if I go now?'. 

"Sure, you can always interrupt me for a question. No need to excuse yourself", she says smiling.

I stand up and walk to the toilet.

Before I go back to the rest, I stand under the stairs and listen if I can hear Liam. 

"Ouch, why can people do this? It hurts, but it feels good as well". 

What he says scares me a little and I quickly tell Rose, Harry and Niall I'm going to see how Liam is doing.

"Okay Louis, be nice to him", says Rose and you can hear the worries in her voice. 

'I will', and I quickly go upstairs.

I walk into the room with the door open and see no one. 

"F*ck, I'm such a big dick! I'm a loser! I'm worthless! Nobody will ever trust me again!", I hear Liam saying before he breaks down into tears.

I open the bathroom door and see a scared Liam with the tears all over his cheeks.

Something slips out one of his hands and he places his other hand behind his back.

It worries me when I see what Liam dropped.

I pick up the razor and see blood on it.

I clean it and put it back in place.

'Show me your wrist please, Liam', I say carefully.

Liam:

Shit, shit, shit! Why didn't I hear Louis coming?

How could I be so stupid?

"Show me your wrist please Liam", Louis says carefully.

I slowly pull my wrist from behind my back. My heart is pounding in my throat.

Louis looks at it with tears in his eyes.

And I just stand there as a little kid who is busted by its mother while grabbing a candy.

"Come here Liam", and Louis gives me a hug.

"I didn't expect this from you", Louis says slowly and I nod.

I didn't expect this from myself either.

"We have to clean the wound", and he gently grabs my wirst and hold it under the tap.

Ouch, that hurts. I bite my lip. Own fault Liam, you shouldn't have done it.

Louis dabs my wound carefully.

"Do you wanna tell the others about this, or?".

'No, please not. Please don't tell the others!', I say feeling panicky. 

"Okay okay, calm down Liam. I don't tell anybody. Promised", and he gives me another hug.

I slide my bracelet over my wound, which has stopped bleeding.

"Louis! Liam! Would you come downstairs? We made a plan!", Rose shouts enthusiastically.

"We're coming!", Louis shouts back. 

"Come Liam, you can't see what you did anymore". 

'Okay', I say and I feel myself calming down.

We walk together downstairs curious of Rose's plan.