Alex Frost

Chapter 24

Stiles pov
  "The only person I let myself loved was a thousand years ago and my mother killed her! The only memory is her voice and the necklace I am wearing!" Alex screams.
  Klaus lets go confused. "Her voice is all you remember?"
  Rebekah stands up. "My voice?"
  Alex freezes at Rebekah's voice, closing her eyes as tears fall down her cheeks. "No." She shakes her head, eyes still closed. "It's impossible."
  "It's not." Rebekah walks up to Alex, grabbing her chin, tilting her head up. "I'm here."
  Alex opens her eyes and grabs Rebekah's wrist. Her eyes glow white and she gasps. She's remembering.
  A minute after he eyes stop glowing and she looks at Rebekah, tears still streaming down her face. "I watched you die. My mother," her face goes cold as realization hits her.
  "Your mother what?" Rebekah ask.
  "I thought my mother killed you. I saw her kill you but, I'm realizing now that," she pauses, "it was just an illusion." She looks around the room taking a deep breath. "We really need to talk about our feelings. Why don't we all go back the the pack house? It'll help all of you."
  We all nod.

  We walk into the pack house. We decided to leave Hayley at the plantation, seeing as she would be safest there.
When we walk in everyone is huddled in the living room.
Scott turns to us. "Monroe is going to Australia. Phoebe tells us a mermaid pod is there. We have to help them."
"Scott. Seriously. Can we stay for at least a week? Just for emotional healing," I whine. He chuckles and nods.
We all settle on the floor instead of the couches. Alex set us in a certain order. She finally sits down. "Okay now we are all, in one way of another broken, and we need to talk about it. If someone wants to start. Go ahead."
Theo takes a breath and starts. "I think I have a lot of issues. For starters I have PTSD. For half of my life I was tortured to be numb. To be empty. Every single time I got something wrong I was tortured," he starts crying and shaking, "again and again and again. Then I was sent to hell where my heart was ripped out of my chest on repeat by my sister and I said it was okay. I wake up from nightmares every day. I am terrified," he gestures to his chest, "of this dark thing that sleeps inside me. The question that was always on my mind since I was kidnapped was if I was alive or just breathing." He takes a deep breath and closes his eyes.
Alex nods slowly. "Liam you go next. We're going clockwise."
Liam nods. "A problem I have is my father and my IED. I know I don't have problems like you guys have, but it still is one. My biological father was abusive and awful. I always had to stitch up cuts I got from him and tend to my mothers wounds. It was basically just me and her. And then my IED. I got it from my father. My IED was bad before I was a werewolf and now I'm terrified that one day I'll snap and kill someone." He fiddles with his fingers.
Corey notices he's done speaking. "I consider myself a pretty happy person although I did and became what I am. The only thing is that I'm afraid of Monroe or hunters hurting someone I care about." He squeezes Mason's hand.
"That's all I'm scared of, too," Mason agrees. "Although I also kinda feel useless in the pack."
Nolan pats Mason on the back reassuringly. "I feel guilty about what I did when I was a hunter. It was awful. My," he takes a deep breath, "parents were abusive. They were never happy with me. I could never do anything right. I still can't. I feel so weak all the time. I'm always timid and scared and I hate it."
Gabe pulls Nolan closer to him. "I'm just really confused lately. About everything. About being a vampire and Im reevaluating my choices when I was with Monroe. I could gone about it so much better but I was just so scared. Then I died, which was painful and terrifying." He looks around the room and nudges Alec.
Alec sighs and rolls his eyes. He looks down. "I lost my entire family because of Monroe's hunter. So I'm very vengeful."
Kristen's next. "I'm probably going to be speaking for most of the Frost pack about a general problem we have. When we were 14 when we witness Alex being murdered and then she miraculously woke up." She sniffles and scratches her nose. "We then found out that we had powers. All of us had gone to her house and found a hidden library. We read books about what we were and fell asleep. When we woke up, we walk out of the room and saw our family on the kitchen floor dead with 'this is your destiny' written in blood on the walls. We were then kidnapped and tortured. We lost our humanity though out the years. It feels like it's been forever, but it hasn't been."
Everyone from Alex's pack nods in agreement.
Selma speaks up. "I feel personally like I've grown considerably more crazy. I once stabbed Phoebe and sent her a note saying sorry I stabbed you. It was funny."
Malia goes after her. "I feel guilty about my family. Especially because I killed them. It may have been a full moon but that doesn't make me feel any less guilty."
"I always feel as though I'm not good enough to be an alpha," Scott admits. "I'm always afraid you guys will die like Allison or Aiden or Erica and Boyd. And Isaac left. I just feel so much pressure to make everything perfect and sometimes I need help to do that."
Lydia nods. "I always feel crazy. I just hear voices in my head. I find dead bodies. I felt when Allison and Aiden died. It sucks being a banshee."
I go next. "My mom died when I was young. She had screamed at me that I was a monster, but I was just a kid. Then  years later the nogitusune happened. I felt like I was going crazy because I was. I never knew if something was a dream or not. Then a little after the nogistusune, the ghost riders. Being forgotten and thinking that I'd never see anyone every again scared the shit out of me." I turn to Elijah who is sitting next to me.
  "I always think about my family first and I worry that I can't fix it," he explains.
  "You maybe right, Elijah. But this group of kids and the fact that I found Alex, it," she takes a breath, "it gives me hope."
  Klaus speaks without making eye contact with anyone. "I never realized that other people could be as broken as me. I think that was a problem. Always thinking I was alone. I know now that I'm not and I think that that will help me just enough to heal."
  Alex looks over the group. "I don't let myself feel for the fact that 'I'm death and I'm not supposed to.' But I think that's bull shit right now. I also think it's awful that you're all kids that were thrown into this."
  "So we're you though," Scott argues.
  Alex chuckles dryly and shakes her head. "No. I wasn't. I'm flesh and bone but not human. I never was. I'm made for a certain purpose: to keep balance by using things like war and death and chaos."
  We talk a little bit after that and the tense atmosphere slowly lifts. I decide to spend the night with Klaus and Alex spends the night with Rebekah.

(A week later)

  We're leaving for Australia. Australia is the place where everything is trying to kill you. Alex and Rebekah are literally sobbing as Selma keeps on reminding them that we can just teleport back here with one call. Drama queens.
  We say our goodbyes and leave to save some mermaids.