Can't Remember To Forget You | Grayson Dolan

6.

All night I couldn't sleep. I was overthinking every little thing in my life. I looked at the clock - 2am.. all of my friends are probably partying right now at the Dolan's house. How could I ever cheat on Cameron with Grayson? God.. I deserved all the bad things that had happened to me.. the accident , the memory loss. I won't let them know I remember. I for sure won't tell Cameron about it neither. I will make it up to him for being an awful cheating girlfriend back then. Should I let Grayson know I remembered what have we done ?..

I got up my bed and got dressed. I was getting ready to crash the party. For once after the accident, I wanted to forget everything all over again. After putting ripped skinny jeans and a red top , I put my hair into a bun and did my make up. It's currently 3am.. they for sure were still partying and drinking. I took a cap to the Dolan house. Once I arrived the smell of weed, sweaty bodies and horny teenagers hit me. I entered the house , my eyes were searching for Cameron. I needed to see him.

"Ayee, Lauren.. what's up?" Ethan appeared out of nowhere , holding a bottle of vodka. "The party kind of started 3 hours ago, where have you been?" He yelled over the music and hugged me.

Drunk Ethan is like regular Ethan just louder.

"Ya know.. I was thinking do you really deserve my presence here." I laughed. I wouldn't let someone of them notice that something is wrong with me.

"Oh please.. as you can see, we are doing perfectly fine!" His eyes travelled over the house, that was full of drunk teens having fun.

"But now with me here it's going to be better , you know it E!"

"Go find and surprise your boyfriend." He pauses for a second. "You know , you can always use my room , if.."

"Stop it ! I'm not talking about this with you right now! " I gently pushed Ethan's arm. "I'm going to find him now." I disappeared in the crowd looking for Cameron. I entered Dolan's kitchen. There were Grayson, Cameron , Victor and Eva talking and laughing.

"What's up , Laureennnn!" Victor noticed me.

"Baby... what's up?" Cameron looked at me weirdly. He didn't expect me to be here since I told him I'm not coming. I avoided looking at Grayson. I will just pretend that he does not exists until I decide what to do with the whole 'you both suck , cuz you betrayed your best friend and boyfriend ' situation.

"I decided to join. I don't want you having fun without me." I went to give Cameron a kiss. I took his face in my hands and smashed my lips against his. "I missed you." I mumbled. I could feel Grayson's eyes on me.

"Aw" Cameron put an arm around my waist. " I missed you too , baby girl. I'm glad you decided to join."

"Who wants to do some shots ?" Grayson interrupted our moment with his suggestion. He had a tequila bottle in one of his hands and a smirk placed on his face.

"Oh , me, me, me! We love some tequila , don't we ?" Cameron's sister clapped her hands together.

"Count me in!" Said Victor.

"I'm not suppose to be drinking because of my medication.. but fuck it. I want a few!"

"You sure , baby?" Cameron looked at me concerned.

"Yes. Just a few. I won't die , I promise." I finally looked at Grayson who was already handing me a shot. He was wearing a black snap back, black jeans and a camouflage shirt.

"What are we taking shots for ?" Eva asked.

"Memories." Grayson said. His eyes met mine. "For the ones we will never forget. Cheers!"

I kept my eyes on him , while taking my shot as everyone else. He did the same. Grayson knows. I'm sure that Grayson knows I remember something, but how ?

The night continued with us drinking and dancing. I took way more than a few shots. I was wasted and I loved it. All the pressure that has been built up in me during the day , was gone. I felt light and good.. and reckless and I loved it. I couldn't control my actions even though my mind completely knew what's going on.

"I'm gonna use the bathroom." I said to Cameron and left him downstairs with the others. The bathroom on the first floor was taken so I went to the one on the second. I expected the hall to be full of making out people , but surprisingly it was dark and empty. When I used the bathroom and I was about to go downstairs, a girl suddenly unlocked a door of a bedroom and went running down the stairs , laughing. I looked into the room she just ran out of only to find Grayson making his bed.

"They are not supposed to laugh after you have fucked them, you know ?" I entered the room and crossed my arms in front of my chest.

"We didn't fuck. We smoked weed and talked." Grayson turned around. His eyes were red , he had a smile placed on his face.

"How deep." I scanned his bedroom. I saw a tequila bottle laying on his bed. I took it in my hand.

"Didn't you drink enough ? " Grayson raised his eyebrows at me.

"C'mon Grayson .. " I poured the liquid down my throat and handle him the bottle. " take a sip..for the good old memories." I teased him. I wanted to confront him about our past. I didn't want to be the only one feeling guilty tonight. I wanted him to remember , too. He took the bottle of my hand.

"The past , huh? " he went to close his bedroom door and locked it. "Is it worth drinking for it ?" He poured what was left in the bottle down his throat and put the bottle on his desk. Grayson came closer to me. "You remember , Lorra. You have remembered what we used to do. I knew it.. the moment you came , looking so hot and so good, kissing Cameron so passionate .. all because you felt guilty. You always used to do that." He talked to quietly , so calm.. almost whispering.

"I guess you know me so well , Grayson.. even better than myself. " my head was spinning around , I had not control over my body , even thought I had control over my words, but I didn't want it..

"I know you better than anyone , Lorra. " I could feel his hot breath on my face. It was a mixture of weed and alcohol. His eyes were looking at me , but they weren't seeing me. He was much more wasted than me. Right then, a hard knock on the door broke the silence between us.

"Gray.. Gray ! Is Lauren with you? I swear, if you two smoke without me , I will kill you both!" Cameron drunk laugh echoed through the room.

Grayson took a joint of his pocket and placed it in his mouth. He unlocked the door.

"We were just about to light it .. "