Can't Remember To Forget You | Grayson Dolan

22.

Grayson's POV

It's been almost 3 full weeks since me and Ethan went back home in New Jersey. And it's been almost 3 full weeks since I last spoke to Lorra. I've been ignoring her ever since that situation with her brother Jack that we had. I don't know how he knew about us and I don't know how he knew about the car accident, but for that one I guess he saw her last phone call before the car crash.. that damn phone call. I know that I should probably talk to her and get this clear , but I needed sometime for me and I needed to do some thinking on my own before we get to that conversation. What if she really crashed her car on purpose .. because of me and how insecure I was back then when it came down to us and our relationship?.. What if something happens and she decides to do something to herself ? I can't handle it. I can't handle knowing that I might be bad for her and I might be reason if something happens with Lorra. 

I was waiting for Ethan in the car, overthinking  what should I say when I see her, what should I do, how should I act.. for three weeks I haven't picked up my phone , but now I see all the messages she had left me for the past weeks.

"C'mon brother." Ethan jumped into the passengers seat and put his seat belt on. I put my phone down and I started the car. "Want some music?" Ethan asked , connecting his phone with the car. I just nod, keeping my eyes on the road. "Grayson.. why are you so quiet ? Are you feeling okay?"

"Yeah, yeah.. I'm fine"

"Bullshit. What's wrong ? Tell your big bro.." Ethan poked my arm.

"Seriously , Ethan." An annoyed groan left my mouth. "Leave me alone. I'm fine."

"Wonderful , if you ask me." He turned his eyes and focused on choosing a song. "By the way.. I talked with Lauren few days ago."

I quickly looked at him. "She called .. like she called you ?" I tired not to sound way too interested.

"No, I called her-" before he could finish his sentence I cut him off.

"Why did you call her ?"

"Jesus, shut up and listen to me.." Ethan raised his voices and looked at me. "I called her , because Eva texted me that her and Cameron had a huge fight and Lauren left their house crying."

"They had a fight ? About what?" I was getting a little nervous? What if Jack had told Cameron about me and Lorra?

"They broke up." Ethan slowly said , looking at me. "For real , this time. Eva told me that Cameron won't leave the house, he won't talk much, he is broken .."

"Why did they b-break up?" I shuttered. My eyes were moving between the road and Ethan's face.

"I don't know. He won't tell Eva. She just told me that Lauren broke up with him and left. I thought she loved him.. it's weird."

I stayed quiet. She did it. She really broke up with him. My Lorra is finally going to be only mine and I won't have to share it with anyone else. I tired really hard to hide the smile that was starting to form on my lips. I thought of Cameron. He must be really heartbroken. He loves her and he cares for her.

"She wanted to talk with you." Ethan broke the silence.

"She did?" I asked a little too excited probably. I guess she is not that angry with me or she just wanted to talk with me so she could take her anger out at me for my leaving .. I kind of screwed up.