Can't Remember To Forget You | Grayson Dolan

20.

Doctors. Hospitals. Police departments. I have been visiting all of these non-stop for the past 2 weeks trying to learn everything possible for my car accident. So far, no evidence that supports Jack's statement that it is Grayson's fault for my car crash. They had found my car crashed into a tree near the town's end. That's it. Someone called them from a street phone(yeah, those still exist apparently) and told the police and the emergency for a possible car crash. That's all the doctors have told me. 2 weeks since I have last spoken to Grayson. I found that he and Ethan went back to Jersey for an unknown time according to Eva. When I asked her why, she told me Ethan didn't want to talk about it.

Me and Cameron are on a very rough path. I have been trying to find a way how to break up with him, but no situation seems like the right time to do it, which is why I am currently in his house, on his bed , trying to avoid all physical contact with him.

"Okay, whats going on? You have been very weird and distant for the past few weeks?" Cameron looked at me , reaching to get my hand in his.

"Um.." I pulled away and I crossed my arms in front of my chest.

"Lauren, oh my god. You won't let me touch you , you won't let me hug you, you won't let me kiss you. You no longer respond to my texts , you have been out during the day, you get home at night , you rarely want to spend some time with me anymore.. " Cameron's sudden burst in anger , scared me and I got off the bed , heading to the door. "Where are you going ? We need to talk.." he quickly stood up , pulling me by the arm.

"Easy, Cameron." I escaped his touch. "I don't want to have this conversation right now."

"It's not only about you , Lauren. In this relationship if you haven't noticed it's the two of us! And I don't feel very comfortable with you anymore!" He raised his voice , slamming his hand on the door frame.

"Well maybe we should break up , Cameron! Cuz I don't feel being with you at all! " I looked at him. Bigger things were happening in my life right now and I couldn't pretend anymore. Cameron started laughing , he wasn't taking me seriously.

"Break up? Oh c'mon.. we have been together what? 3 years... don't be childish."

"I think 3 years were enough for us. I'm serious Cameron. I don't want to be with you.. " I kept my face serious. His smile faded away , then he slowly spoke.

"What is really going on? How come you say those things ? " Cameron's eyes became darker, his jawline was clenching.

"It's not from those past 2 weeks.. it's from ever since I woke up in the hospital. Cameron I don't feel in love-" he cut me off by pulling me closer to him.

"Baby, are you okay? What are you even talking about?"

"No, Cam." I pushed him aside. " I am perfectly fine. All this time I was trying so hard to feel in love with you the way you are with me, but I can't help the fact that I'm not. I don't love you , Cameron." Tears we're running down my faces seeing Cameron's color slowly leaving his. His eyes were getting watery, his body began shaking.

"I don't get it , Lauren, I don't .. I really.. is it something with your memory going on? You have been visiting the doctors lately a lot and.."

"I might have lost my memory, but my heart remembers.. and I'm so sorry, for lying to you all this time. I don't know why, I don't know how , but it is just not you Cameron. I'm sorry." I reached to wipe his tears away and try to comfort him. Seeing Cameron cry and breaking his heart truly hurt me. He never deserved this, I never deserved him. He got my hand in his kissing it and intertwining our fingers together.