Can't Remember To Forget You | Grayson Dolan

12.

" Grayson, how do you not have a spare tire?"

We were sitting in the car for about 15 minutes now with Grayson getting mad over the flat tire. We called Cameron, asking him for help, but apparently his phone battery was dead and we could not reach him. Grayson called roadside assistance to helped us and now they were on their way to help us , but still it would take them sometime to come so now we were stuck in the middle of nowhere.

"Why are you being so mad? They will fix it, chill." he was texting something on his phone.

"I am not mad, I am just-"

"What? You now feel little embarrassed because of the confesion you just made?" he looked at me and raised his eyebrow. He was having so much fun with our situation right now.

"I don't feel embarrassed. I feel kind of bad because you have not said anything about it."

"I don't know what do you want me to say. I mean, you know how do I feel about you." Grayson fully turned to me. His face was serious.

"How do you feel about me , Grayson?" I licked my lips, while biting the bottom one. I was nervous of what answer may I receive. His eyes travelled from my eyes to my lips.

"I can't stay away from you, Lorra. And I don't want you to be anyone else's. I don't want you to be with Cameron." he looked at me again and started to lean in. I closely moved closer to him. I knew we were about to kiss. I wanted to kiss him so bad and I wanted it right now. "But I can't have you. I can't never fully have you for myself." he broke our stare and created a distance between us leaning back on his seat.

"Stop playing around , Grayson! I am not really down with all of this "going behind Cameron's back and flirt' thing. What are you so scared of?"

"I don't want to lose Cameron, okay? I have been a really bad friend to him, even though I care about him."

"I am sorry , Grayson , but you kind of have to choose. " I kept my eyes on him. I was not going to leave this conversation unfinished.

"What do you mean I have to choose? " He looked at me, anger was building up inside him.

" You either choose me and we both figure out how to deal with Cameron or we no longer see each other. Not even as friends. I don't want to lie to him and I don't want to lie to myself neither."

"You are just saying that because you don't remember everything you had with him, Lorra. You care about him." he closed his eyes, holding his anger.

"Cut the bullshit Grayson!Yes, I do care about Cameron! But if I loved him, it wouldn't matter if I had lost my memory. I would have fallen in love again, but I haven't. I don't love Cameron." I put my head in between my hands and I massage my temples. "I don't love him. Grayson I don't need to make a choice anymore. Since the beginning it  has always be- "

"Don't say it, Lauren! Just don't finish the damn sentence!" he cut me off , yelling.

"You are such a coward! Fine, I won't say it! " I yelled back. "But just so you know.. when we get back , I am breaking up with Cameron for good."

"You-" he was about to say something when a car stopped next to us. The help finally came. We got our tire changed and we were ready to go again. Grayson paid them and got in the car. We stayed quiet not wanting to continue the talk. There was a lot of traffic and we were moving very, very slow. There was no way we could make it home, before midnight since it was currently the afternoon and we for sure have to stop again for food. We haven't eaten anything since yesterday.

Grayson turned the music on so it can fill the silence in the car. A weird memory crossed my mind.

Flashback from before the accident :

Me and Grayson were laying down on my bed. It was around midnight , the window was widely one and the cold air filled the room.

"Remember that time you fell off your snowboard and injured yourself really bad when we were on a vacation?" I looked at Grayson. We were cuddling and my hand was drawing circles on his arm.

"yeah.. You got so scared , you almost exposed us! It was fun tho. Ahh, I almost died." He quietly laughed and hugged me tighter .

"I freaked out, Grayson. I thought that something really bad happened to you and I might.." I stopped talking because I was scared to say it.

"You might , what?" he got on top of me.

"That I might lose you." I put my hands around his neck , pulling him down.

"You are never loosing me, Lauren. I promise." he whispered. His lips connected with mine in a perfect sync. He slowly started removing my t-shirt , his lips travelled down my body and he got his head in between my hips.

End of flashback.

I shook my head trying to avoid the sudden memory. I looked at Grayson , who was focused on the road. I have always  been afraid to lose him. I have always wanted him. For me it was always Grayson.

"I can see that you are staring." his voice was now more quiet and calm.

"I can see we are moving really slow. We are not gonna make it home , before the night comes and I am getting hungry and tired." I changed the subject.

"Yeah me too..I barely slept last night and this long drive is killing me." Grayson was soft and warm and nice again. His moods change real fast.

"We can stop at McDonalds or something because I am starving and if we are going to drive all night I need coffee."

"I am not driving all night. We will go into a motel. I am so not dealing with the traffic."

"You want us to go into a motel?" What the hell was going on with him. 30 minutes ago he was angry at me for expressing the feelings we both share and now he wanted to stay in a motel room with me?

"Grayson, are you sure-"

"I am not asking you. I need sleep and I won't let you drive my car."

"You scared I might crashed it?" I laughed.

"Don't even joke with that!" he raised his voice.

"Why? "

"Because I don't like you joking about the time I almost lost you , Lorra."

"When you fell off your snowboard and almost broke every bone in your body you never took it that seriously."

"You remember that?"He looked at me in shock.

"Of course, Grayson. Then it was the time I almost lost you." I looked at him . He stayed quiet , but I knew damn well I got into him. Again silence filled the car. I got my phone to check the most near by motel. Soon I found one and the picture showed, unexpectedly for a motel a lovely mountain view.

"I found us a place. If we go rest now and have some food, we will be able to get up early and be home tomorrow morning" I gave Grayson instructions where to drive.

"Okay, boss. I am listening." he joked.

Me and Grayson could argue a lot, but we could never stay mad at each other. Between us is never too uncomfortable for a long time. We had chemistry and things just worked out no matter what.We drove for a little while until we reached the model. There was a small supermarket, also. Grayson went to find us rooms and I went to buy us food. When we met again at the car , he held a room key in the air.

"They got only one room available , so I guess we were lucky. A lot of people like us are trying to escape the traffic." we started walking to our room." Oh .. and by the way..it is with one bed."

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