Dean's Cowgirl /✔

Chapter Thirty-Seven

as I waited for the huge bathtub to fill up, I put my hands on my hips and swayed them back and forth. the contractions weren't bad yet, but I know from years of my mama talking about birth and women's bodies, that it was going to get worse and better. I followed my instinct and put my hands on the counter, leaning on it and swaying my hips.

Sam came into the room and I breathed out through my mouth.

after about twenty minutes, Dean came into the room with mama behind him.

"do you want Sam and Dean in here?" she asked gently.

"not..." I breathed. "Sam... please." she nodded and shooed Sam out. he looked relieved to leave, knowing Dean would kill him if he saw me naked.

"ok, what do you want to do?" mama asked.

"bath." she nodded again and reached for the rest of my clothes, hesitating until I nodded, letting her pull them off. I stepped out of my underwear and slid into the warm bath. I breathed heavily as a contraction passed. mama rubbed my arm comfortingly and Dean stood there, not knowing what to do. i got the sudden urge to stand up and lean on him.

i let mom pull me up and i waddled over to Dean. he let me put my hand on his shoulders and lean on him as mama pushed her rebozo over my hips, making them stop aching. i sighed in relief.

i swayed my hips slowly and Dean held my weight. a contraction started and i groaned, tightening my grip on Dean's shoulders. the contractions started getting closer together and i went over to the bed, on my hands and knees. mama had put down a huge mat to keep the birth fluids off the blankets and sheets, but i didn't care.

i followed my instinct and pushed, hard. i stopped and panted.

"you're doing amazing, Sara. you're almost there." mama said. i squealed loudly and pushed. i paused to pant and pushed again. and suddenly it was over. i panted hard and rolled onto my back. mama put my new born baby into my arms and i looked at... her. it's a girl. i glanced at the clock on the nightstand and saw it was almost midnight. i had been in labor for almost eight hours. i smiled and looked down at my baby girl.

then Dean was there, brushing hair out of my face and kissing my forehead, looking at our beautiful daughter. i laid there with my baby in my arms, the most amazing feeling going through my body. i smiled and leaned my head back on the pillow.

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i opened my eyes and glanced at the clock. it was almost ten in the morning and i looked down at my baby. i kissed her forehead and looked at Dean who was sleeping on his side facing me and still in his jeans and t shirt. i smiled. before i went to sleep last night, mama had cleaned everything up and let me go to sleep mostly naked in our bed with my new baby girl in my arms.

i stood up and grabbed my robe, wrapping it around me. then i grabbed my baby girl and gently picked her up. i put a diaper on her and then wrapped her in a blanket, holding her close to me.

Dean stirred and looked at me. i smiled and he stood up, quickly changing into sweatpants and a different t shirt. i started down stairs and Dean was right there with me, to help me down them. i sat down at the table and fed my baby. i still needed a name. I grabbed a piece of paper and a pencil and started scribbling down all the names i liked. including middle names.

Leila Rose

Paige Fea

Raven Jene

Faith Real

which one should i pick? i tapped my chin with my pencil and studied them. oh, i know.

"hey Dean, come here!" Dean poked his head in from the kitchen, looked at me and then walked in, a towel in his hands.

"ya?"

"which name do you like better?" i asked, pointing at them. he picked up the paper and studied the names. i could see the wheels turning in his head as he thought.

"Raven Jene." he said, tossing down the paper. i smiled at him in thanks and turned to my baby- Raven.

"how do you like that name? do you like Raven?" i said softly. she wiggled and almost smiled. i grinned, and watched Raven fall back asleep. i sighed.

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two years later

"Raven! get out of the house!" i hollered, wiping water from my hands. "were you in the mud pit?"

"yes, mama." she said.

"then get outside and hose off the mud before you come in here. i just cleaned this floor!" she nodded.

"yes, mama." she went outside to hose off her feet and i sighed, shaking my head at her. Dean was going to be home any minute and he would tell her gently to listen to me, even though he doesn't do much else to scold her. she needed to learn what was right and what was wrong.

me being a mom, i know there's a line i don't cross in her punishment, but if she's being stubborn, i count to five for her to start up to her room before i paddle her butt. i know it sounds harsh, but i don't get to five very often. that's why i count. to give her the chance to listen. but sometimes she doesn't want to.

trust me, she does just fine most of the time, but i just know. when she gets older, into her teens, she's going to rebel. i shook my head at her, smiling. that used to be me. only i rebelled when i was her age. the impala pulled into the drive and i heard Raven's squeal.

"Daddy!" i stepped onto the side porch and watched as she ran to Dean. he held out his arms for her and she jumped into them.

"were you a good princess today?" he asked. she nodded and smiled.

"i got mud on daddy's coat." she giggled. he looked down and looked annoyed at the fact that there was mud on his coat but when he turned to Raven, his face reflected him looking at the most precious person or thing in the world.

there was something off about Raven. i don't know what it was, but she was different. i could sense it every time it rains or when she played in the driveway after dark. Dean caught my worried expression and walked to me, Raven in his arms.

"you ok?"

"haven't you noticed whenever it rains, or she plays in the dark, she just seems different. i can sense it. i don't know what it is. if there's something wrong with her, or if she's just gifted. whatever it is, it's there, and we'll know soon."

"it'll be fine, Sara." he said, looking at me softly. he kissed my forehead and Raven squealed.

"eww, daddy!" we both chuckled.

someday she would get big, and something was going to happen. i could feel it in my gut.

THE END

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hey y'all! that's the end of the book! I'm going to make a sequel, starring Raven, but i have to finish the other books I've started first. *eye roll*

i hope you're looking forward to that!