CALL IT SUICIDE

Suicide: 12.Jean's P.O.V *CON'T*

That's my home!

I left the door open, Stanley had come into the kitchen. "And after you kick that bastard out I hope you don't get another foster bastard because you know I hate f**king kids!!" he yelled. I sighed as I dished out our plates. We both sat at the small wooden table inside the kitchen and started to eat.

"Stanley I love kids and......I was hoping that we could adopt a baby girl", I said with a smile as he rose up and grabbed the belt, my smile turned into a frown. "What the f**k did I say, read my lips carefully, no...more...f**king.....kids", he said slowly as I stopped talking about that topic, he quickly sat back down and continued to eat.

"Maybe i'll just adopt and raise the child on my own and you can leave" I mumbled but he heard me and that was a huge mistake as his fist connected with my right eye. I groaned and got up and looked into the mirror that was in the kitchen. My eye was getting black as it was swollen, I started to cry as he kept eating with a sinister look on his face. My covered my eye as I sat back down and pushed away my plate because I lost my appetite.

"Why did you hit me like that Stanley!!" I yelled as he looked at me. I was angry, "Because its like you forget who pays for things around here!!' he yelled back as I grew silent. "That's what I thought now shut your f**king mouth and get me a beer!!" he yelled again as I quickly got it. "I swear to God one day i'll leave your ass when I get a job and provide for myself!!'' I yelled at him as he looked at me evily and got up, I stepped back. "How the f**k are you gonna do that, your dunce!!" he yelled at me as he started to laugh. "Whatever Stanley!!" I yelled. "I want head tonight so make sure your mouth is clean" he said as he sat back down.

The door flew open as Loghan entered the living room, my Heart started to beat fast as the thought of Loghan getting angry and setting the house fire came across my mind because I was gonna kick him out. Stanley stopped eating and a large smile came across his face as he got up and walked into the living room, followed behind him. "There he is!!" Stanley yelled as I looked at him, "He just got home Stanley" I whispered as he gave me a mean look. 

Stanley's fists were clenched. Loghan turned around after Stanley had said that and then he caught my eye as he shot up and walked over to me. He examined my eye and then turned his attention to Stanley, "The f**k Stanley!!" he yelled as he clenched his fists, I knew that this wasn't going to end well. I knew that Loghan cared for me but he just didn't know how to show it. 

"Why don't you pick one someone your own size you big ugly ass mofo!!" ILoghan yelled as he got closer to Stanley, Stanley stepped back."Loghan please leave it alone", I begged as I tried not to cry, Loghan was angry as hell. "Yeah its none of your business little boy!!!" Stanley yelled, Loghan creaked his neck towards him and he stepped back. Loghan didn't hesitate to punch him in his right eye. My mouth flew open as Stanley fell to the ground. Loghan looked at him with so much rage and hatred and I knew he wanted so badly to kill him. "Loghan I said to stop it!!" I  yelled as he looked back at me in disbelief. "I should kill this b*tch your the one with the black eye!!!" he yelled at me as I stepped back.

He tried to calm down but that wasn't happening. "Look Loghan Stanley and I were discussing something and...." I started to talk but I looked down, I couldn't do it.

I sighed then looked back at him as he stood there with so much anger. Damn it you bastard!!!" Stanley yelled as Loghan snapped his head towards him, Stanley nursed his eye as he tried to get up but failed. "What is it Jean?", Loghan asked me as I looked at him sadly, I knew that he was still a little upset with me. "This was a hard decision but Stanley says it is for the best", I ranted which caused him to get annoyed. "What is it Jean!!" he yelled at me as I jumped. "I think you should find somewhere else to stay!!" I finally blurted out. He looked at me with disbelief and his mouth flew open as his pupils expanded as he looked at me, I turned away. 

I felt horrible. One main reason why I wanted him to leave was because I knew how dangerous Stanley was and he could kill Loghan so its best if they both parted. "Wha..what??!!" he yelled at me. "You heard her, she's kicking you out, finally!!" Stanley yelled as Loghan snapped his head back at him and started to let out his anger, he kicked and punched him. Loghan was breathing heavily. "You son of a b*tch!!!!!!!!!!!" Loghan yelled at the top of his lungs. "Loghan that's enough!!!!", I yelled at him, I was scared. He kept going, I saw nothing but blood and heard nothing but silence. "I said to stop it Loghan!!", I yelled as I  ran for my gun that I kept in case of emergencies. He stopped and swung around and he couldn't believe what he saw. 

  He looked at me as I stood there pointing the gun at him as he breathed heavily, he surrendered. "Your kicking me out for a him really Jean??!!!!!!'' he yelled forgetting about the gun because he knew that I wasn't gonna shoot him. "Ye..ye..yes Loghan you need help" I said in a very calm tone. He scoffed, "I need help???!!!!", he asked me as I placed my finger on the trigger.   

"Yes you do Loghan, I mean you get angry over little things, I knew that you were a bad apple from I saw how quick they wanted me to take you but I thought that I could help you, show you love and care for you but that's not working, Loghan you need serious help" I said calmly. 

 He scoffed and took the gun from me as my Heart was pounding in my chest. I gulped and took a step back as he pointed the gun towards me, I put my hands up as he placed his finger on the trigger. "F**k you, f**k this shit!!!!!" he yelled as I stood there with fear in my eyes. He placed the gun on his head and as he was about to pull the trigger Stanley kicked him on the back of his foot and he fell face flat on the ground. I took a breath of relief but quickly stood guard as I knew that something was going to happen to Loghan. 

  Stanley grabbed the gun before I could and got up as Loghan turned around to see him pointing the gun on him. He laid there on the ground. "Stanley don't do it, he can't help it, he has issues and he's just a boy!" I begged, Stanley knew that it was true but he ignored me. They stared at each other until Stanley finally spoke, "I would kill you but I don't wanna go to jail and besides your not worth it, but if you ever assault me like that again I won't hesitate to kill you, you bastard!!!'' he hissed as Loghan spat on him.  

"Do it, I ain't afraid to die and f**k you!!!!!!!!", Loghan yelled at him as his finger pressed the trigger and I started to started to scream. Stanley put down the gun and I looked down to see blood all over Loghan's right leg and I started to panic. Loghan looked shocked as he couldn't believe it.  Stanley stood there proudly.

"Loghan just leave now", I said as I packed up his belongings and opened the door before anything else happened to him. He took one last look at me and got up as he hopped to the door and grabbed his bag from me that contained his clothing, toothbrush and other stuff. He looked back at Stanley who had a nasty grin on his face, "And don't let me see you anywhere or else you'll be dead!!'' Stanley yelled as I locked the door. Where was he gonna go?  

I looked at Stanley who looked at me with a smirk on his face, I ran up to my room and did nothing but cry as I was the worse person on Earth, It was my duty to protect Loghan but I failed. And he was out on the road hurt, he could die. What was I going to tell his case worker and the orphanage, I could go to jail and Stanley would too. 

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I'm sorry that this chapter is long its because this was Jean's only chapter in the book!

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