CALL IT SUICIDE

Suicide: 10.Loghan's P.O.V

It hurts the way you pretend you don't remember me!

  I tried to calm down but that wasn't happening. "Look Loghan Stanley and I were discussing something and...." she started to talk but she looked down, I knew it was bad news.  

She sighed then looked back at me. "Damn it you bastard!!!" Stanley yelled as I snapped my head towards him, he nursed his eye as he tried to get up but failed. "What is it Jean?", I asked her as she looked at me sadly, I was a still a little upset with her. "This was a hard decision but Stanley says it is for the best", she ranted which caused me to get annoyed. "What is it Jean!!" I yelled at her as she jumped. "I think you should find somewhere else to stay!!" she finally blurted out. I looked at her with disbelief and my mouth flew open as my pupils expanded as I looked at her, she turned away.

"Wha..what??!!" I yelled at her. "You heard her, she's kicking you out, finally!!" Stanley yelled as I snapped my head back at him and started to let out my anger, I kicked and punched him. I was breathing heavily but I wanted him to suffer! "You son of a b*tch!!!!!!!!!!!" I yelled at the top of my lungs. "Loghan that's enough!!!!", my foster mother yelled at me but I kept going as I saw nothing but blood and heard nothing but silence. "I said to stop it Loghan!!", she yelled as I felt something hard in my back. I stopped and swung around and I couldn't believe what I saw.

I looked at her as she stood there pointing her gun at me and breathed heavily, I surrendered. "Your kicking me out for a him really Jean??!!!!!!'' I yelled forgetting about the gun because I knew she wasn't gonna shoot me. "Ye..ye..yes Loghan you need help" she said in a very calm tone. I scoffed, "I need help???!!!!", I asked her as she put her finger on the trigger. 

"Yes you do Loghan, I mean you get angry over little things, I knew that you were a bad apple from I saw how quick they wanted me to take you but I thought that I could help you, show you love and care for you but that's not working, Loghan you need serious help" she said calmly.

I scoffed and took the gun from her. She gulped and took a step back and I pointed the gun towards her, she put her hands up and I placed my finger on the trigger. "F**k you, f**k this shit!!!!!" I yelled as she stood there with fear in her eyes. I placed the gun on my head and as I was about to pull the trigger Stanley kicked me on the back of my foot and I fell face flat on the ground. 

He grabbed the gun and got up as I turned around to see him pointing the gun on me. I laid there on the ground ready to die. "Stanley don't do it, he can't help it, he has issues and he's just a boy!" my foster mother half yelled. We stared at each other until he finally spoke, "I would kill you but I don't wanna go to jail and besides your not worth it, but if you ever assault me like that again I won't hesitate to kill you, you bastard!!!''  he hissed as I wiped my nose, I spat on him.

"Do it, I ain't afraid to die and f**k you!!!!!!!!", I yelled at him as his finger pressed the trigger and I started to feel excruciating pain in my right leg and my foster mother started to scream. Stanley put down the gun and I looked down to see blood all over my feet as I slid up and the mofo had shot me in my right leg.

I saw the small bullet as it bore a hole through my foot. I groaned as I tried to stand up but couldn't. My foster mother tried to help me but I flashed her off of me and managed to get up. I bit my lips in order to not groan, I hopped on my left leg and sat down on the couch as they watched my every move. I grabbed a piece of cloth from my clothes hamper and wrapped my leg, blood was all over the floor.

"Loghan just leave now", my foster mother said as she packed up my belongings and opened the door. I took one last look at her and got up as I hopped to the door and grabbed my bag from her that contained my clothing, toothbrush and other stuff. I looked back at Stanley who had a nasty grin on his face, "And don't let me see you anywhere or else you'll be dead!!''  he yelled as my foster mother locked the door. Where was I gonna go?

I groaned at every hopped I took, that wasn't gonna get me anywhere so I started to walk on my right foot which was painful as hell but I sucked it up. Why does God want me to suffer, couldn't he have just killed and done! I walked-hopped through the neighbour, it was silent and everyone was inside their homes. A saw police cars drive away with some men at the back.

I continued to walk when all of a sudden someone yelled my name.

"Loghan!!!" the voice sounded familiar, I looked over to where it was coming from and it was the new girl, what the hell was she doing around here.

I stopped as she walked over as Meghan followed behind her, the f**k was going on??!! They both stopped in front of me and I looked at them with a straight face, the new girl looked at Meghan as Meghan stared at me, she looked nervous and angry at the same time. 

"The f**k ya'll doing here!!??" I asked them furiously because I was in pain and they were holding up my time. Meghan took a look at my foot and her mouth flew open and so did her eyes, Bella didn't seem to acknowledge the fact that I was shot. 

"Look here Loghan you need to learn a little about respect and manners!!" she yelled, I didn't have time for this. I kissed my teeth and walked off but the new girl kept walking everywhere I want which annoyed the shot outta me. "Look why don't ya'll little girls run on back home and leave me the f**k alone!!" I yelled."You think that imma let you talk to me-" the new girl was saying but Meghan cut her off. They had a minute conversation which I can't believe I stood there and waited for them to finish. 

The new girl turned around and she looked at my foot and her mouth flew open, I rolled my eyes and continued to walk. "Loghan wait up!!" the new girl yelled as she ran up to me, Meghan followed her. "What happened to your foot?" the new girl asked, does she ever shut up?! I glared at her and then looked back in front of me. "None of your f**king business!!" I yelled annoyingly.

"Loghan we wanna help you!" Meghan said as she jumped in front of me and caused me to stop. 

I looked at her evily. "But first we need to get to somewhere safe!"she added.

"Let me take your bag and i'm sorry for approaching you like that its just that-" the new girl was saying but Meghan cut her off again. "Let's just go" she said. I looked at both of them before I gave in, I was hurt, I needed help.

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