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Chapter Sixty Six - Vogue Party

Walking into this Vogue party was a suicide mission. I knew it. My manager knew it. Even my driver right now knew it as I was stalling in the car, refusing to get out.

"Miss, I can't wait much longer. You have to go out. You have to walk the red carpet" My driver, Paul, told me.

"Maybe we can just turn back and leave. I'll even buy you pizza, how does that sound" I asked genuinely. God I really want pizza right now.

"I'm sorry miss but it's too late. The cars are queuing up behind, there's no way out. And besides, they're all expecting you out there, Miss Alithea" He turned to me, smiling.

"You're right. I'll go now. Thank you so much, have a great evening. And sorry for this" I told him, reaching for the door handle.

"Wait Miss Alithea! Before you go... That boy was an idiot for not realising what he had. It's his loss, not yours." Paul said with a grin.

"You know what Paul? You're right. Thank you." I said before opening the door and stepping out.

The flashing lights from the cameras were blinding. Paparazzi screaming my name as I posed for a couple of pictures on the red carpet.

I quickly made my way to the entrance of the venue, successfully ignoring any and all questions that were thrown at me.

Finally, I made my way inside, texting Ashley that I arrived. Shrugging my coat off, I made my way to the brockhampton boys that were here.

After a quick chat with them, I finally spotted Ashley who was standing with Michael, Calum and Luke. I quickly excused myself to Matt Champion before making my way to them.

"Hey guys" All the boys did not waste a second before hugging me.

"Thea we missed you, you've been MIA for a month" Calum shouted, frowning a little.

"Yeah sorry, I tend to do that now apparently" I said, rather bitterly. Before I could ask them how they were, a voice I was more than familiar with cut me off.

"Hey Thea." I turned to the source of the voice and was faced with a very uncomfortable, but very handsome Ashton Irwin. Damn him for looking like that.

I quickly assessed him. He was wearing black skinny jeans. Shocker. A black top and a black jacket. He looked different, but in a good way.

"Ashton." I tried my best greeting him before making my way to the bar and ordering a drink for myself. I made a mental note to tell the barman to keep them coming.

"Alithea... Can we talk?" Ashton somehow reappeared behind me.

"About what? Sorry I'm a little busy right now" I quickly grabbed my drink and started making my way through the crowd.

"Thea! Please." I finally turned around to face him. This was precisely why I called tonight a suicide mission.

"Okay. Talk" I finally complied softly.

"Oh my gosh babe I was looking all over for you! What were you doing?" A very familiar high pitched voice interjected.

My heart dropped as Camila ran up to us, well ran up to Ashton, placing a kiss on his cheek. Of course this would happen.

I took a long sip of my drink before leaving a very incredulous Ashton with Camila clinging onto his arm.

I made my way to the balcony, thanking the world that there no one was here.

It was silent. Beautiful even. The balcony had a breathtaking view of LA. It was nighttime but so much light was radiating from the city.

I thought that I would finally be able to recollect my thoughts before I was suddenly interrupted.

"Thea, stop!" A breathless Ashton shouted, making his way towards.

I turned around to face him and took a deep breath.

"No you stop! Stop following me and acting like you fucking care because you're hurting me. I hate this! I hate feeling so much anger towards you when I have no right to be feeling this way!" I finally let it out, tears threatening to spill out.

"I do fucking care for fucks sake! Be angry at me! Scream at me! I don't care! Just stop ignoring me. Please."

"I have no reason to be mad at you Ashton" I said weakly. I turned back to the view, as it was the only thing preventing me from crying right now.

"You don't?" He shouted back.

"No!"

"Then tell me Alithea, why are you crying?" He asked in a low voice "Why are you ignoring me? You couldn't even say hello to me 10 minutes ago!"

"Has it never ever occurred to you, that I can't say hello to you and risk another goodbye? Did it ever cross your mind that seeing you with Camila fucking killed me on the inside? Did you ever think that maybe I couldn't just consider you as a friend, as much as I tried?" I looked back to Ashton with tear filled eyes, "And the worse part is, I have no right to feel this way. We're just friends. We never kissed, you never hinted to anything more. It's just me. And that's what fucking hurts, Ashton. That's why I'm crying".

Ashton was frozen, his eyes boring into mine. I gave him thirty seconds before I picked my drink back up and left the balcony.

I didn't dare look back, ignoring my friends who were calling my name as I left.

oh poor alithea :(
alright so the timeline is completely messed up, i'm going to fix that asap but at this point ash and thea met about 9-10 months ago
also i used some taylor swift lyrics in this chapter, i was listening to sad music for inspiration and that line stuck!
have a great weekend,
lily x