Fix Me || Jerrie

Chapter 11

Jade (17:37)

I miss you, can we talk?x

My breath caught in my throat when I saw the message from Jade and I scrambled to pick up my phone so I could type a reply.

Me (17:37)

I miss you too and I'm so so sorry I didn't tell you. Of course we can talk, I'm free now so I could come meet you wherever or you could come to mine if you want?x

I didn't want to wait any longer to talk to Jade, I'd missed Jade so much and I just needed to see her. I wanted to explain myself to her and hopefully she'd be able to understand. For a moment after I'd hit the send button I thought about my reply and I realised it could be interpreted as desperate. Whilst I was desperate to see Jade, I didn't know if she wanted to see me right this second so I didn't want to scare her away after so many weeks of not talking. With that thought I quickly grabbed my phone and typed out another message.

Me (17:38)

Sorry if that sounded like really needy or anything but I really have missed you Jade x

My heart was pounding away beneath my ribs as I waited anxiously for Jade's reply.

Jade (17:38)

No, now is great and yours sounds perfect. Maybe you'll even introduce me to Mackenzie properly?x

A wide smile grew on my face as I took in Jade's reply. It seemed like she wanted to see me as much as I wanted to see her. I smiled wider at Jade's last sentence because I was done with secrets and I wanted her to know Mackenzie because at this moment in time I couldn't really imagine my life without either one of them. With a large smile still glued to my face I typed out my reply.

Me (17:38)

Great so I'll see you soon then? And I'd really like that x

I texted Jade my address and then threw my phone on the sofa so I could frantically clean the flat as much as possible, it was an absolute mess and everything had to be perfect for when Jade came round; I wasn't going to ruin it again. Mackenzie was currently having a nap, though she'd probably wake up soon, so I had no distractions and I set off cleaning. I quickly gathered all of Mackenzie's toys and put them in the toy box then I made my way into the kitchen to wash the dishes from lunch.

About 10 minutes later, I decided I'd done as much cleaning as I had time for. Most of it was done anyway, there was only a pile of clothes that needed ironing left in the corner and the living room needed hoovering but Mackenzie was asleep so I didn't want to wake her up. Either way, the flat looked a whole lot tidier so I was happy. I checked my phone anxiously as I flopped onto the sofa, being careful not to mess up the cushions and throw I had neatly arranged on it, when suddenly there was a knock at the door. Taking a deep breath, I pulled myself to my feet and slowly walked over to open it.

"Hi." Jade said cautiously. I smiled softly at her and held the door open wider.

"Hey." I replied gently. I was nervous and I could tell Jade was too. She was wringing her hands together and shuffling slightly from foot to foot. Neither of us said anything for a moment or two and then I realised that she was waiting for me to invite her in. "Ehh sorry, come in." I mumbled as I blushed bright red and stepped away from the door to allow Jade in. She smiled gratefully at me and crossed the threshold.

When I turned around from locking the door I was met by a pair of arms that latched themselves around my neck and I found myself pulled tightly against Jade's body. I instantly relaxed against her and wound my arms tightly around her waist to pull her even closer. I felt Jade bury her face in the crook of my neck and I clutched her jumper in my fingers as if I was afraid that I would lose her if I didn't hold on tight enough. We were so close not even a piece of paper would be able to fit between us but it felt right, it felt perfect. A sigh escaped my lips and I pressed my face into her hair. It was times like this when I really wished I had a sense of smell because I wanted to memorise everything about Jade and her smell was included in that. I guess my imagination would have to suffice though. Jade's warm breath tickled my neck and sent goosebumps down my arms but I only held her tighter. It seemed Jade had the same idea because I felt her arms tighten around my neck and her body press closer. I was surrounded by her warmth and I never wanted to let go.