Meant to be

Part 10/9

- "WHAT?" he screamed and jumped out of the bed. Usually I would've laughed but this was way too serious and he continued putting his clothes on - "WHEN YOU DECIDED TO TELL MY THIS???"

I felt so bad I hold on to the blanket and was sad and then he screamed again: "When!!"

- " I DON'T KNOW. I TELL YOU THIS ALREADY. WHY DO YOU MAKE SO BIG OF A DEAL OF THIS?"

- "WHAT'S SO BIG DEAL?" He watched me shock in his eyes - " IT'S FUKING ILLEGAL!"

- "AND SO?" I asked - "It isn't like anyone cares anyway"

- "Your parents do" I laughed at it holding on my belly because it was thes best joke I've ever heard but he continued : "What are you laughing at? WE WERE IN THE CINEMA TOGETHER AND IN RESTUARANTS. Now I know why I saw these disgusted faces when we were in restaurant"

- "So you only care about what others think? " I put on my top quickly and throw the blanket of off me and stepped out of the bed - " But our feelings? They are fucking real!" I said and put his hand on my heart but he quickly took it away and it hurt me and he said:

" WHAT FEELINGS? THERE IS NO FUCKING FEELINGS?" He screamed and I took one step back I was scared " WE NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS SHIT! I NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS SHIT. IT'S YOUR FUCKING FAULT!!" He screamed and it broke me. I was angry and sad at the same time and I just took my back bag and threw my pants and other stuff in there. I was only in a shirt what barely hide my undewear and but on my ballerinas on and I started to storm out when he's hand stopped me. I hoped that he will say that it was only a mistake and everything will be okay but he just asked angrily when I took my phone from window sill : " WHERE ARE YOU GOING!"

I was so sad and angry I just didn't care anymore what I said I just said:

"OUT!"

"Like this?" he asked with care

" YES! I HOPE I DIE SO YOU COULD GET OUT OF THIS "SHIT"" I told him and stormed away.

.........

I run and run. I didn't care anymore about men whistling and watching me lustfully.

I run until I reached home.

I didn't give a damn if my parents are home or not. I just went in my room and closed my door with a bang and I reached to my bed and at the same moment when my head contacted to wall what's against my bed, I broke down and just screamed and cried. He said that it was just a shit for him. It broke me. I knew that I should've told him but I didn't care about it.

I felt so lonely and the sad part was. I couldn't call to Megan because we held it, our relationship, as a secret because I didn't want to lost my only real and best friend because he was her only brother and she wouldn't let me meet him anymore. Like I would have cared but what broke me at that moment were his words and voice. "HOW? HOW?" I screamed in the air and tears spilled from my eyes until I felt a sharp pain in my left hand.

It was terrible but I thought it will get over quickly but then there was a sharp and long lasting pain in my right knee and I thought the same. But then I was overwhelmed with pain. It felt like somebody was attacking me with a knife everywhere.

I tried to reach for my pill bottle what was hidden in my bedside table. I threw the drawer open in agony but just as I saw them, everything went black.!..