Meant to be

Part 21

I ran to Megan's apartment I just said to her that I got in a fight with her brother and then stormed to his guest room # benefits of best friend.

I put my on my bed and quickly opened my pill bottle and took them because it was killing me but I was so consecrated on running away so yes.

It was the day when I wanted to tell him, tell him that I'm pregnant but it didn't work out so I had to go to gynaecologist alone.

I was so mad. I knew that my sickness was actually pretty serious but when you are dyaing do you really think that all you wanna do all your left life is worry about something you can't change and what is part of you anyway.

I was sad at that night I didn't got why we had to fight about it. I loved him and one of the reasons why I loved him was that he never mentioned it and now he had to just brought up the fight. I knew that I went over the limit but hey I'm pregnant I have reason to be but I just didn't got that why we had to fight all I got was hurt and I'm pretty sure he was not happy either. When we are on the same team but had to fight then why?

My emotions were all over. At one moment I was angry and threw everything and the next I was tearing and the other I just regret everything

"Why I just couldn't talk about it like a normal people. Maybe he now got that I'm just a child and he will leave and I have to raise this kid alone. I love this kid anyway but what if all we do is fight. Maybe we just had this so called honeymoon phase and now we see the true colors." I over thought

Megan was my best friend for a reason. She never came to , then, my room and let me just feel it all and she knew that when I'm ready I will tell her. At one moment she screamed that she is going out with Raimond and 5 minutes later the doorbell rung and I thought it was Megan who has just forgot her keys but when I opened it was surprise, surprise- Mirold and I just went off again:

- "What do you want?" I asked rudely

- "Talk to you!" he said calmly

- "Too late for that, sorry" I said and closed the door and sighted heavily and my baby kicked very softly and I whispered : "Everything will be alright honey. Your father and I are just fighting" and went to my room and tried to get some sleep watching same time Simpsons- yes I was ruining this kid already but hey I can't do this while she's teenager.

Maybe 3 hours later? I woke up on my phone ringing and I looked the caller id- Mirold.

At this time I felt that I'm ready to talk to him and said in a sleepy voice:

- "Hi"

- "Milenia" he sounded surprised, happy and worried at the same time- " I missed you!" he said and it took me by surprise but I didn't lied to him because in the inside I missed him too but I tried to hide it with anger. I know that it was only maybe 6 hours but it was midnight and then I always wanted to be sleeping beside him

- "I missed you too!" I said in a low voice - " I know that you just wanted the best but I never meant to"

- "No let me talk!" he said with a stern voice but I still whispered " Start the fight" but he continued:

"I love you Milenia. You are everything to me and just that you are sick and it breaks me but I know that I shouldn't but this before you. And I'm sure you did everything and searched for everything to find away and I just I used our age gap as justification. But I love you and I want to be there for but it breaks me when you never say anything even if I see these symptoms with my own eye. I just want to be there for you. Please come back"

- "I know Mirold that you want the best and I never meant to go out of myself but I just... It's hard for me. I'm trying faking and that nobody knew about it was my defence . I never meant to start the fight you have to believe me. But I think I have to stay at Megan's for a while because maybe our fights have ended to easily and we have to think that if it's just a moment that shows us something important.."

- " No Milenia. If it shows something is important it's Us .It's our best quality mark that we can't be angry towards each other for long and we know that's because we are us"

"We are us" I whispered

- "Yes we are us because we have never been just you and I it have always been us, from the start"

- "From the start" I whispered happily it was true we were never individuals we were always us together

- "Can you please now come back?" he pleaded

- "No. I'm at your sister's house but I promise that I will come tomorrow..."

- "After school?" he sounded happy

- "After doctor's appointment."

- "Okay." he sighted - " I love you!"

- "I love you too" I whispered