Meant to be

Part 19

Darkness, but it wasn't the darkness of ending it was darkness for my body. It left me leaving scared. Knowing he was there to saw me. That he will be worried. That I don't have no reason doing what I did for my parents, knowing that I will get lost out if his life. Knowing that he may think right now that I'm gone forever or...or... he will left.

Because that I wanted to woke up as quickly as possible so that pain would be finally over. That I would finally be sad... without anyone because I was scared that the one I love would left me behind so I screamed my eyes to open. I fought and fought until I gave up and they opened.

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The first thing I saw was Mirold looking close to me, handing me cup of water, his face super worried but I smiled and then he kissed me and said:

- "Don't do that never ever again!"

- "You know that I can't control it." I said with sadness and switched sides facing now the wall and stayed quiet and I heard him sigh and then he said:

- "You made me worried. Why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you tell me you were in pain" I stayed quiet and he sighted again: "You. I know you don't want to talk about this...." I still didn't said a word just give him to know with my down thumb that I don't want to talk about any of that and my heart started lightly hurt again " I love you Milenia. You are all what matters to me Sprinkle. I just want to see like this"

- "Like I could do anything about this..." I slightly whispered to my self and told him to call doctor never mentioning that I felt pain and asked him to leave until the doc has gone away.

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When the doctor came, it was sad for me to see that it wasn't my medical doctor but I knew that he hadn't to say anything new

- "Hello. How are we doing?" I asked like... him

- "In wonder you are alive. We contacted to your parents but they never came anything about that, after being off for 2 days"

- " TWO DAYS!!!" I screamed

- "Just joking, only 26 hours but in your case it's pretty bad because..."

- "I'm dying..." I sighted

- " You have PP. But I guess you already knew but I wonder why it wasn't in your medical report"

- "Because maybe I have kept it as a secret?" I told him like it was the most obvious thing

- "Even if you have only max 9 months with your child?" He asked and I screamed perfectly not noticing the child part:

- "HOW LONG DO I HAVE TO LIVE'???"

- " Maximum one year and a half" I sighted relived but then I was confused:

- "But why did you said 9 months?"

- " I told you have time with your kid that long..."

- "With my kid?" I was confused and he sighted heavily from this and but his hand on his forehead to show how stupid I might had to seem him:

- "You are pregnant. 3 months for now."

- "But how? How I never noticed?" I was confused - "Nobody noticed"

- "Like you being sick. You should be way thinner and I heard that you eat just like you should be but from sickness"

- "I should eat much less. But maybe I'm just healing"

- "No, you are not. It's..."

- "Impossible. I know" I said turning my back to him - " But how I let that happen? I'm dying I may lost this child anytime. I'm not ready for this ache"

- "Like nobody else would but right now in your case, this pregnancy is working for you. You can hide both of them"

- " I guess I have to" I sighted and reached for his hand - " Please don't tell Mirold, this guy who have been here any of what we discussed"

- "Okay. I changed your pills that they wouldn't affect your pregnancy and rise the dosage but you have to eat..."

- "Healthy. I know"

- "Nope as many bad shit as you could but that all. But you have to stay here foe couple of days because that big black out."

- "Will do! But can you send Mirold in?"

- "Will do!" he said.

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I still remember that the first thing what I did when Mirold walked in to my hospital room was : " I love you!"

"I love you too" he said and kissed me