Meant to be

Part 24

One week later

I had found a job for me, thanks to my different language speaking and I got two of them. One of them was playing with one very sweet classic singer Silence I had to take a flute part but sometimes I have piano too and now I love it when I do this too myself and the other job was being a guide because my love about history...

I know that I'm dying and should live out all my dreams but I will find them time in the afternoons or when I don't have something to do, because now I have something more important for who to live for and that's my little unborn baby girl Mirelda- Nogracia. I don't know why but I like this name and it came first in my mind when I saw her...

I was happy. I can left someone in this world to remind me but I didn't know what would happen after my death.

I was still angry at Mirold. Megan told me that it shouldn't be such a big deal what he told me and she have knew it for 10 years but he is still just a bro to her and then I told her that I'm pregnant. She was so happy and asked me if Mirold knew and I said the truth. "He hurt me. There is no way back"

- " No there is. This little girl inside you is the proof of it..."

- "NO, Megan okay. I'm happy that you are happy but there is too late. He hurt me. HE lied to ME, to hurt ME!!! I can't never forgave him that" I told and then left the couch and went to my room. Deciding to do the list what I wanna do before I die. The first thing was:

1. meet my daughter

2. be loved truly by someone

3. meet dolphins

4.Visit Australia ( because I love koalas and kanguruus)

5. Get a bet

6. Be a child doctor (even if it's for a day)

7. Have a one night stand

9.Get to know my parents (my real ones)

10. Get a place what I can call home

11. Love the men I love ( even if I'll love him forever)

12. Be with my daughter Mirelda-Nogracia Michelson (hopefully) at least 2 months

13. Forget who I am

14.Learn on guitar " I can't breath"

15. Learn show dance

16.Be a singer

17. Wake up next to them

18. Get married

After that I thought why is Megan so stubborn and about my moving out to small apartment, I decided to I wrote a letter about it:

Dear Megan...

I know how much you are shipping me and Mirold, but there is one thing you should know. That's that his words hurt me, literally!

I have this disease called Preflextons Precilioms, PP as short and I will die. Max I will live is year and a half. I'm sorry to tell you this way, but I knew what it did to Mirold ( trying to get away from me) and I don't want this reaction. It broke me...

When he told me these things and I left, I had a black out on a middle of the road because of the pain what was covering all over me and my mussels stopped moving, so I was in a rain. The next thing I knew is that I was in a hospital and they told me that the baby was alright but me health was much worse and it would've affect the baby. I left with these papers, but after I had read this stuff... I wasn't ready and I think that I never will be. It made so much damage, after fight after fight, I don't want another to make us both, me and my baby, disappear...

I'm so tired of this, so I'll move away. Not far but enough do not see him anymore... it hurts me that I still

love him and I know that I'll love him until the day I die and maybe past on but I have to leave. You are the greatest friend and person I've ever known and I hope that my mixed up relationship with your fabro ( as you say) don't screw it.

I have to leave.

Bye

Milenia Wildshed