Flawsome ✔

Chapter 16 - Relentless

Tuesday, December 13th, 2016

Thanks to Calo, Angela and Miranda openly admitting their truths, more people joined in and told their truths. Some minor truths, like crushes, have been admitted openly. But there had been students who had a truth they didn't want to share with the entire school. They took the dare and partially acted like me for another day.

And I took the dare Calo and Pyper gave me, trying to not organize my stuff. Or at least, not as much as I usually do. I started with my notebook, since I slide it around during my writing anyways, and in the end of the day, I left my pencils in my pencil case, I piled my book and notebook until I needed either one of them, and I didn't use the regular order, all without feeling too restless.

Not just Calo, but Pyper, Angela and my parents told me how proud they were of me. It had been a very good day.

What surprised me most, is the fact that Kaley told me about her having a borderline personality disorder, surprising not only me, but Angela too.

And after Kaley, two more students came up to me to open up about their illness, one telling me she has OCD too, but not as bad as I do. Farah feels like a bit of a cry-baby because she knows how hard my days can be, while she only compulsively counts, counts, counts; everything.

I'm surprised by their revelations, and the fact they now seem to be supportive of me.

And instead of spending my lunchbreaks on my own, or with Pyper or Angela, I now sit with Calo, Kaley, Miranda, Angela, Farah and her best friend Libby.

For the entire week, people had been coming up to me to apologize for treating me badly and I can't help but wonder if it had been Calo's game, or the school lecturing about bullying, that caused people to support me more.

It's putting it lightly to state that I feel a bit uneasy at times.

Just like today.

Ever since people started opening up about their own fair share of problems, Jimmy and Luke lost a lot of popularity. Their group of friends grows smaller and smaller, and their hurtful words aimed at me, are mostly punished by others snapping at them to stop acting childish.

Calo isn't in school today. He texted me in the morning to tell me I inspire him, and he made an appointment with a new therapist, to see if he could lessen the frequency of his episodes.

He also told me he expects to be physically exhausted after the visit, so he would skip the entire day.

But since Calo isn't my only friend anymore, I still don't have to sit alone. Pyper's suspension is done and she's been hanging out with me and the girls during recess and lunchbreak.

But since all friends but Calo are girls, I'm alone most of the time. During P.E. The girls are playing hockey on one field, while the guys play soccer on the other field. And I'm seated with Coach Brynn, going over my essay.

He's pleased enough to give me a B, explaining what it is I missed in my information.

I just can't help but feel a bit distracted, as I keep finding myself worrying over Calo's appointment with a therapist. I know how much he hates them, and I know how exhausting such therapy sessions can be. I just hope he'll be fine afterwards.

"How are you doing these days?" Coach Brynn casually asks me as I fold the papers to put them in my pocket. "Think there's any hope of joining at least one class of P.E. before you graduate?"

"It's not really my main focus to join P.E." I admit with a careless shrug. "I'm trying to focus on making it through the week without any panic attacks. This week is going surprisingly decent so far."