Flawsome ✔

Chapter 14 - We need to DTF

Monday, November 28th, 2016

I had a bit of a rough weekend after the session with doctor Delgado. I tried, as much as possible, the remind myself of possible positive outcomes whenever I felt the need to execute any of my compulsions and habits. But it was hard, and it distracted me from some things, like the beat to turn of the lights. It's hard to remember the rhythm of a song while also trying to come up with any possible positivity following a fire.

I couldn't think of one.

And it took me hours on Saturday to go through my morning rituals, failing them over and over again, one by one.

Sunday had been a better day, as not only dad, but grandpa too, kept me company and helped me find any traces of the city's history to document with my photos.

I have about five pictures that I was pleased enough with, writing down the story behind them once we were back home. It kept me busy and the day went like any other day; just do what I always do, in my own way. No positive thoughts, but nearly no negative thoughts either. Since I already skipped a couple of days of school last week, I forced myself up and going today, heading over to school while not knowing how Calo is doing.

I haven't heard from him ever since he kissed me and hurried out of our house.

I'm confused as hell about that kiss anyway.

What did it mean?

What does it mean?

I need answers, and he didn't give me any via text since he ignored the three or four texts I've sent him over the past couple of days.

I even demanded an answer in the last text, but to no avail; Calo still ignored me.

I have to say, I'm not even nervous about going to school because of the usual obvious reasons. I'm nervous because I don't want to lose the one friend I have. The one person I actually like enough to spend time with, while he obviously likes hanging out with me too.

It's Luke's voice that makes me aware of the fact Calo is already in class, when I walk closer to the door, running a bit late due to start-up problems this morning.

"What's up Delgado? Got nothing on us, huh?" Luke tauntingly calls out to Calo, who I now find seated at his desk, with his head propped on his hand, staring out of the window; ignoring Luke and Jimmy who are in front of his desk.

"Are you deaf?" Jimmy pushes Calo's arm aside, causing his head to nearly hit the table.

He looks exhausted, his eyes bloodshot, his pupils tiny, those eyes focussing on me as soon as I walk up to them.

"Morning." His voice is even a bit hoarse, as if he caught a cold, or as if he's been crying for hours. I think the latter is a safe bet, knowing his condition.

"Hey." I mumble back, sitting down next to him, while I notice Luke and Jimmy looking back and forth between us.

"What, did the two lovebirds get in a fight?" Luke leans forwards over my desk, his face close to mine. "What's wrong? Did he fuck you too hard?"

"That's it," Calo snaps at him, pulling his arms off the desk, causing Luke to actually hit his head on my desk. "I'm going to kill you."

"The fuck!?" Luke calls out in anger, Jimmy grabbing Calo's collar in anger.

"Piss off," Calo spits in his face, digging his nails into the skin of Jimmy's lower arm.

"Auch!" Jimmy raises his fist, wanting to hit Calo, as Mrs. Tilly shows up at his side with an angry look on her face.