Sweet Nothing • (book one) jb

chapter thirty-one

Songs inspired for the chapter;

Recovery - Justin Bieber

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"Lexi?"

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I carried Alex bridal style into the hotel room. She had fallen asleep on the way back to the hotel so now I was stuck carrying her. I wasn't complaining about it because she was light. I was just worried for her because I knew she was high, just not what she was high on.

Banging my foot on the hotel room door, I pulled Alex up so that I wouldn't drop her. Literally a second later the hotel room door flew open revealing my tired looking mother. She gasped as she saw me but her eyes switched down to Alex examining her thoroughly.

"She looks awfully pale." My mom said. She pushed opened the door more so I could make my way through. Nodding my head at her statement, I walked through the door and down the small hallway. As I was walking through the tiny living area I seen that almost everybody from the crew was here. As I walked through they all stood up with alarming looks.

I avoided their gazes and walked past them into the bedroom. I kicked the door shut with my foot and did my best to steady Alex so I could turn on the light. I was successful and walked over to bed gently placing Alex on the it. She fell onto the bed slowly with her eyes shut tight. I carefully slipped off her shoes throwing them at the end of the bed. Grabbing the blankets, I put them over her body and a second later she pulled them closer to herself. I stepped back thinking she had woke up, but her eyes were still shut and she started to snore lightly.

I sighed, running my hand across my face. Shaking my head I walked toward the door opening it, but before closing the door I looked at her one last time. She seemed so peaceful and at rest. She looked like she didn't have a care in the world but I knew better. She was completely broken and needed help. I knew that she could be fixed but it would take time. There was this gut wrenching feeling in the pit of stomach that was telling me someone caused her to be this way and I just added onto that.

I flicked the light off and closed the door softly. Hearing the click indicating it was fully shut, I walked into the living area. I kept my head low as I walked through, but I knew they were all staring at me. I could just feel it in my head. I knew they wanted an explanation but at the moment I was thirsty so I went into the kitchen grabbing a water. I twisted the cap open and closed the fridge before making my way into the living room. As I sat down on the couch I chugged down the water until there wasn't even a single drop left. It felt so refreshing when it flowed down my throat.

I crushed the bottle in my hand and threw it on the coffee table before slouching back and looking at everyone. I licked my lips and fixed my gaze right on my mother.

"I found her on the side of the road. She was being tormented by police, so Scooter don't be surprised when you get a call saying I pushed a police officer and gave attitude." I said as I switched gazes to Scooter, but then turned back toward my mother.

"She was high, mom. I don't know what she was high on, but it wasn't good." I said and shook my head. I could feel stinging in the back of my eyes and I knew I was going to break down at any moment. But I did my best to hold them in. I thought I did enough crying for the day and I really didn't want to break down in front of everyone once again.

I knew that everyone was staring at me because I could see out of the corner of my eye. They were probably all wondering what in the world was happening. After all I never told any of them about my past and that includes Lexi. They all just know some of the story about posting things on youtube, but not that I fell in love at a young age.

Switching my gazes toward everyone else I took a deep breath and put my head down before looking back up at them. I was starting to choke out the words when I felt a tear fall down my eye. I probably looked like such a girl right now, but it's okay, guys cry too.

"Tonight I found out something." I said to them with my voice cracking. "I knew Alex before she came on this tour. She was my girlfriend."

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Alex's P.O.V

I woke up, my body literally springing up. I had sweat pellets coming down my forehead and my clothes were sticking to my body. I groaned to myself as a sudden nauseating feeling overcame my sense of smell. I felt like I wanted to throw up, but I didn't have the energy to do so.

I swung my feet over the bed and did my best to stand up. As I stood up I felt woozy, and my vision suddenly became black. I felt like I was stuck in time and space. I gripped onto the wall until the dazed feeling stopped and my vision came back, but the nastia never went away.

I walked out of the bedroom and the smell of bacon, eggs, and coffee swung through my nostrils causing me to gag. I now knew why I felt so nauseous.

I walked through the suite and into the kitchen. Justin was facing the stove cooking up a storm and humming along to one of his own songs. I ignored his presence as my head randomly started to pound with an aching headache.

I brushed past him and toward the first aid kit Pattie always kept with her. I knew it was in the cupboard so I grabbed it taking out the bottle of advil. I knew Justin was staring at me because he suddenly stopped humming. I got a cup of coffee and took the two pills, but as I swallowed I just wanted to throw up.

I put the cup in the sink and looked up at the whole room purposely avoiding Justin's gaze. Then it suddenly hit me why I was feeling this way.

My body felt disgusting, but at the same time it felt right. That's when all the memories came flooding back and my mouth started to water along with my hands twitching.

"How did I get back?" I whispered to Justin looking up at him. His gaze was soft as he looked toward me. There was something different about the way he was acting, I could just see it in his eyes.

"I found you." He gulped and turned back toward the food. It was as if he was being careful of what to say to me, like he was scared he would say something wrong.

"Oh." I told him eyeing him suspiciously. He nodded his head lightly and avoided my gaze. I just ignored it and walked over to the table sitting down. All I was thinking is I have to shower, but I'm too freaking lazy.

I put my head in my hands and shook my head. The pain pills were starting to kick in and it helped with my headache, but this gagging feeling wouldn't go away. What made it even worse was food got passed toward me, but that's not what caught my attention and made my head pop up.

"You should eat Lexi." Justin said.

Lexi. He said Lexi.

"Lexi?" I spoke looking up at him and his eyes went wide. I could feel tears stinging in the back of my eyes because he remembered and I didn't want that. "So you finally remembered." I laughed bitterly.

I knew my eyes were watering, but did I care? No. I got up and started to walk away but was stopped by Justin's voice.

"No, Lexi I'm sorry." He shouted causing me to turn around.

"Don't you dare call me Lexi, you dumb fuck." I spoke through gritted teeth. I was going to walk away, but something told me to stay.

"What did I ever do to make you hate me?" He whispered. I could see a tear slip down his cheek but at the moment all I did was laugh bitterly.

I laughed for a good five seconds before looking up at Justin. He had a look of confusion on his face because of my behavior.

Shrugging my shoulders and licking my lips I narrowed my eyes at Justin. "If you'll excuse me I'm gonna go be a good daddy's little girl and take a shower." I spoke before turning to walk away, but not before I seen Justin's eyes grow wide in realization.