Sweet Nothing • (book one) jb

chapter thirty-seven

Songs inspired for the chapter:

Fix a heart - Demi Lovato

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"...I'm sorry and that you were right."

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I had done a lot of thinking since my last encounter with Justin. His words had a great impact on me because they were all true. I guess since the fact that what he said was the truth, it made me realize that what I was doing to him was wrong.

I was pushing him away every chance he got to get closer to me. Every time I would let him in I would do my best to push him away from me. Not only him, but everyone else too. What he did was in the past and he was right about that. When he walked out of my room that day I couldn't help but to hear certain words echo through my mind.

'But just know you can't run away forever. Someday you're gonna have to face the past, it always comes back. It will either turn out good or bad, but things happen for a reason..'

Selena was right. It was bound to happen and now that Justin remembers me, I'm going to have to face him. I'm going to have to take his words into consideration.

I was sick of crying and I was sick of losing people in my life. I knew I had grown an attatchment to Justin once again, but then I just pushed him away. I knew I was going to have to let him in again so my pain will go away. I wasn't saying I was going to love him again, but I want to be his friend. I needed a friend.

If the only way for my pain to go away is to fix it with the person who caused it, then so be it.

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The plane doors opened and I was met with the hot air pressing firmly against my skin. I squinted my eyes looking out at the already beautiful view before a smile crept across my face.

I always dreamed in going to certain places in the world and I was allowed to do those things, but this one I wanted to visit and now it's happening. I was finally getting to see the Bahamas and it wasn't just for a day or two. It was for two whole weeks. To say I was excited would be an understatement.

It wasn't like anything I had experienced before traveling with Justin because there weren't swarms of paparazzi everywhere, flashing lights, or screaming fans. It was just the blow of the wind, an empty runway and the beautiful sun.

I stepped down the stairs of the jet letting my feet touch the ground. It felt good to finally be on land again. Over the past year I had grown tired of being in the air and in a vehicle. It's weird for me to say this, considering I'm the laziest person in the world, but I will be walking to places for awhile.

"Finally a vacation!" I screamed throwing my arms up into the air, smiling so big.

I heard laughter erupt from behind me from my action then a hand touch my shoulder.

"I think you should thank Justin for it." Alfredo whispered into my ear before winking and walking away.

A frown then replaced my smile because I really hadn't talked to Justin since the incident. I guess because I had done a lot of thinking since then I haven't had the time to confess my thoughts aloud.

It's just, everything Justin said was true and at first I didn't want to admit that to myself. His words haunted me for days and they finally got to me. I almost confessed to him, but I found out we were going to the Bahamas and forgot about it. That was until now.

Pursing my lips out, I nodded my head and turned on my heal. I watched as Kenny, Scooter, and Pattie got off of the jet sending me warm smiles along the way. Not everyone from the crew came on the trip because they had other things to attend to. So now the only ones who were here were the six of us including Justin and myself.