It's complicated.

Chapter 7

At y/n's apartment

Right when I stepped out of my car and started walking up to my apartment, I saw someone that I never thought I would see again.

Right there. In front of me stood Richard. Yes Richard. The Richard that had stolen my heart. The Richard that had ripped apart my heart. The Richard that I have always loved and missed. The same Richard that broke off our engagement because I didn't want to have kids right away. Me standing there speechless, starting at Richard. Waiting for him to say something. I guess he was waiting for me to say something too because I had to speak first.
"Umm... hi Rich," I said quietly.
"Hey Y/n/n," he said. I went to go unlock the door and invited him inside.
"This place looks different then it did before." Richard said.
"Yeah, well it usted to be just Z living here back then," I said quietly. I offered him a water and he said 'no thank you'. I finally asked him the question that had been on my mind from the moment that I saw him.
"Why are you here Richard? I mean what are you doing here?" I asked him. He stared at me for a minute and finally answered.
"I miss you. Like I've always missed you. But now I can't sleep anymore. I can't eat anymore. I can't stop thinking about you. Y/n your were the love of my life. No, you ARE the love of my life. I have never, never loved anyone as much as I love you. You were the best thing that ever happened to me and I lost you because if some stupid fight. Y/n can we please go back to what we had?" Spilled out Richard. I looked into his eyes and could see how broken he was. He looked as if he hadn't slept in years. As if he had just given up on life.
"Rich, you have to understand that you broke me. You made me feel like I was worthless just because I didn't want to start a family right away. You made me feel like a horrible person for not wanting to start a family right away. You broke me. Even after I told you that I was sorry and that we could start having kids. But you said no because you didn't think it was possible for you to be with a person that doesn't want kids right now. That's why I can't forgive you Rich. That's why it hurts me so much because I went back and tried to tel you sorry and I tried to work things out but you didn't. You just stood there and told me no and that we would never get back together." I said surprising myself. I didn't think I would go off on him that bad.
"You know that wasn't me when I didn't take you back. You know that I wasn't on the right zone y/n. You know I had been drinking the whole time. You know I was going through a rough patch," said Richard.
"Okay I understand that, but you could've been like I'm not in the right zone right now y/n, come back later or something. But no, you sent me home as if I was garbage or something. And that is something I will never be able to forget. Because I went to OUR apartment to go and figure out things and see if we could get back together but I knew there wasn't any hope after that night." I said, I didn't realize that I had stood up and was shaking. Richard realized that and also stood up and tried to hold my hands. He knew that I was about to get a panic attack. He knew how to control them, even being almost a year apart he still knew me so well.
"No stop... I... can... handle... them.. by... myself..." I said in between breaths.
"Y/n, please let me just help you," I finally let him help me and started to clam down. He was holding me in his arms and I looked up to him and he looked down on me. We slowly went on for the kiss. I didn't know what hit us. Was it cause we missed each other? Was it because we were actually one another's soul mate? Well I never understood what had hit us because it got very heated and ended up in my bedroom...