It's complicated.

Chapter 15

Waking up the next morning took a lot of work. You were a little hungover from the night before. You didn't think you drank that much but I guess you were wrong. You got into the shower and texted Tom asking him where he wanted to go out for breakfast.
After your shower, you changed and got ready. You wore a stripped romper with some wedges and curled your hair. Something cute but casual. Tom had replied back to your message and said there was a nice cafe in the local town. You didn't know what this vacation meant for yours and Toms relationship. Was this a step forward as a couple or was this a step forward as friends? You meet Tom at the lobby and made your way to the cafe.
At the cafe you and Tom were quick to start a conversation. It was easy talking to Tom. He understood you and you didn't have to explain yourself. Same goes for him.
"So your telling me that he was cheating on you with his COWORKER? Even though he didn't trust you with ME. What a dick." Says Tom. He quietly whispered the last part but you were able to understand what he said. "Yeah he didn't trust me with YOU! And little did I know that his FIANCÉE thought that we were broken up and that the reason I was still hanging out with him was because I didn't have anyone else and because I wasn't over him!" You said with a fake laugh. Tom shakes his head as he sips his black coffee. Your food had arrived shortly and you guys ate and had small talk.
You and Tom had decided to go look around and go shopping. You had forced Tom to go to every store with you. He kept acting like he was miserable but you knew deep down that he was having the time of his life.
* Toms point of view *
When you weren't looking he'd catch himself staring at you. He'd have to snap himself out of it. He needed to remind himself that you were going through a breakup. Another relationship was the last thing you needed. So he had made the decision the night before leaving to Greece that he was going to be there for you as long as you needed... as a friend.
"How does this one look?" You asked him. He had to once again snap out of it. He looked up and saw you standing there in the front of him wearing a baby blue dress. He swore he's never seen someone that beautiful before. He was at lost for words and felt himself starting to drool.
"Tom..Tom..tom. TOM!" She said shaking your shoulders. You looked up and finally came back to Earth.
"Oh! Sorry my bad! I think it's the hangover that making me like this." Lie. "You look beautiful. The color really pops out your skin color." Thats what I said. What I really wanted to say was that you were the most beautiful girl in the world and that he loved you. But he didn't. He never did. He didn't think he had the right to.
"Thank you Tommy. I think I'm gonna get this one and a few other ones and then I'll be done. I promise." She said with a smirk and wink at the end. She quickly chose a few more dresses and was ready to go back to the hotel.
*y/n's point of view*
You guys had decided to eat something small in the local town instead of eating at a nice restaurant and having to dress up. The walk back to the hotel was nice. You and Tom had a heart to heart talk about fame and life in LA. It was nice to have a break from Hollywood and the paparazzi. It was nice being seen with Tom and not having to stand 10ft always from him and having people wondering your dating or not. Ever once in a while your hands would grace each other. You don't remember if it was your or him that had finally had enough and held the others hand. As he walked you to your room you got kind of sad. You didn't want the day to end and you didn't want to leave him.
" Why are you sad?" He asked you chuckling. You looked up to him and saw his face. You made eye contact with his chocolate brown eyes that always somehow made you get lost every damn time. Then you noticed how cute the moles on his face were. And then you saw his small pink lips and you finally made your move. You kissed him. And he kissed you back. You were lost in his arms and lips when you felt him pull away. You were shocked. You weren't expecting him to do that. Did your breath taste bad? Did you smell bad? What was the problem?!
"Y/n I can't do this. I promised I wouldn't do this to you. " He said, sadly looking down at his feet and avoiding eye contact with you.
"What are you talking about Tom? I thought you wanted this just saw bad as I did..." you said whispering the last part. He heard your whisper and looked up and finally made eye contact with you.
"Did I make you feel uncomfortable? Do I smell bad? Does my breath taste bad? Wait do you not like me anymore?" You started to ask a bunch of questions and he quickly grabbed your face and kissed you again. But this time you felt a bang in your heart. It felt like you had just been shot with what felt like Cupid's arrow. You were in shock and didn't realize that he had stopped kissing you.
"I don't ever want you to think that I wouldn't want you. Because trust me. I really. REALLY want you. Like bad. Like really really bad. But I know your getting through a break up and I don't want us to be a rebound and that why I want to wait until YOUR ready for a relationship. Because trust me. I've been ready for you from the moment that I first met you. I've waited 5 years and I can wait another 5. But please don't make it 5 again." He says with a smile at the end. You look up into his eyes and smile.
"Okay I promise."